It's beyond just disappointment.

I feel like killing you now ;

I feel so cheated, very cheated!

You said you don't, but I have the feeling that you are. But well, since you don't want me to bother about you - I shall stop bothering. Perhaps the 'lucky ones' will be able to hear something from you. Good for you, at least you found someone to talk to. I guess, being a substituition for so long it's enough. Until now then I found out the truth, it's a little too late but I just have to admit that I'm such a great fool. Suffered so much, went through so much of pain and harship, in the end, I was just a substituition. I dont blame you, cos it's me who initiated all these. So be it, for now I shall let nature takes its course. If you really want to stop contacting with me, go ahead. But I'll still be waiting for your message, perhaps for some 'good news'/

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I'm so stressed up! Please tell me what to do yaaaaaaaaa. :/

Struggling with art, persisting in dance! Now's already 18april and our syf is on MONDAY! I really cannot imagine how well will we perform. I definitely want everything to turn out smoothly ehhh. Had dance practice today, was seriously so worn-out and we ended at 7pm! Everybody looked so pale and weak towards the end of practice. But no matter how tired are we, we still have to persist till later! Going over to UCC to rehearsal for monday's competition and it's going to be the last..last practice before the syf. Jiayou dancers! We have to put in all our efforts to get what we all wanted! I believe we can do it! \m/

Art is killing me for the time being. I did nothing for the last 2weeks and I had nothing to submit for my 6th submittion. I know that I will surely get a harsh scolding from him when I go back to school on tuesday. But I admit that it's my fault, as I didn't put in much effort for this submittion. Feel so lacking behind, just like how I was at the beginning of the year. See the red stickers I've got make my heart pain. Tsk, what the hell. This submittion is going to be a red sticker tooooooooo! *Embarassed.

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Sighs, I don't know what I should do ahhhhh.

I thought I could put all those thoughts behind me for some time, but seems like everything's out of control again. Why must such things happen at this point of time! F.. I don't know I don't know I don't know. I just want to think positive now!

Why can't you just sit down and talk to me nicely? What's so great about your pride? Why must you always think about urself before others? Do you really think you've done nothing wrong? Sighs, no point grumbling about all this. Because you simply won't care about anything. You're always in your own world and that's you. I hate it, I hate it so much. If I'm worst, I think you're no better than me. Dammm. Please think about it, really. THINKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

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PEIMEI, coooooooool downnnnnnnnnn.

You can do it! "Think Positive, Be Optimist!"

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