Sick.

Ina - Suddenly lyrics

We make our pacts ,
We're independent .
We dump our boyfriends.
And we do our hair anyway we would like .
We figure out , that we are attractive .

And we look around ,
And now we loved to live the single life .
And then we tell ourselves we'll never fall in love again .
But then he comes around and suddenly we understand ,
That we have never really been in love before.


And suddenly I know what all the love songs that they write are all about ,
And suddenly I dont care if its right or wrong as long as he's around ,
And suddenly the things that used to sound cliche are perfectly right in your eyes .
Perfectly right with this guy .

I know its weird ,
But we are connected .
And in some strange and crazy way I think ,
That we have always been .

And now he's here ,
And he says he loves me .
And it feels so right ,
And In fact it feels so good that I can't sleep at night .

But I just told myself I will not fall in love again .
But he just came around and then he made me understand ,
That I have never really been in love before.


And suddenly I know what all the love songs that they write are all about ,
And suddenly I dont care if its right or wrong as long as hes around ,
And suddenly the things that used to sound cliche are perfectly right in my eyes .
Perfectly right when he's here .

And yes ,
I know you might get impatient .
But look around ,
He might be walking right in front of you .

And if he touches you and you feel your skin is burning .
Kisses you and you feel your stomach turning ,
He's the one ,
He is the one .

And suddenly I know what all the love songs that they write are all about ,
And suddenly I don't care if its right or wrong as long as your baby's around ,
And suddenly the things that used to sound clishe are perfectly right in your ears .
Perfectly right when he's there .
Perfectly right when he's there .
Perfectly right with this guy.


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The truth will set sparks.

2 more days to Olevel mother tongue, all the best to whoever who will be taking their papers on monday! ;D

And yessss, June holiday is approaching know! ;D After olevel mother tongue, will be having 4days of e2 camp. During the weekend, will be having kayaking course. Then follow by 3days 2nights of art camp! After which, will be flying offfff! Awwww, can't wait! ;D But not to forget, still have to revise for the other subjects and be prepare for term3.
But still, I can't wait lahhhhh! Because .. you-know-i-know! ;D Wahaha!

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I want to runnnn! I want to play basketballlll! I want to go night cyclinggg! I want to learn roller bladinggg! I want to watch moviessss! I want to catch the sunrise and sunset! I want I want I want!

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Sighs, so bored!
It's been 4 hours since the last one, awwwwwwwwwwwwww! ):

Strong Feelings.

Blame it on me.

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Look at the mess that has become out of something so pure.

Look at what I've done lah, what's wrong with me lah! I'm feeling very suckish now, like seriously. And I think I'm being very paranoid - what the hellllllllll, what's wrong what's wrong what's wrong? Can I go bang the wall now? Argh.

It taught me a lesson - Think before you act. Okay, I swear I will try to learn from my mistake.

What the hellllllll, I think I sucks alot today. Shit me x10.
Gonna do some self-reflection upon being like a ftard today. I hate this part right here.

And sorry. I was wrong.

SCREAMMMMMMMMS!

It's like removing a heavy rock in your heart, & it feels so free. Never expected this to be so easy, really. Though I had difficulties at first, it was optimism that overcomes everything. I'm happy for myself of course. It's like finally everything has come to an end and I can put a fullstop to it. Regrets? To be frank, there were. I don't blame anybody, because I know the problem lies with me. But who cares, I've gotten over it and I'm doing fine.


Anyway, there's a limit to my patience. I can tolerate all these in the past but not anymore. It's like getting from bad to worse. I warn you, one more time and you will face the consequences of your actions. TRY ME, sucker.

The wretched pain within my chest,
just like a stab in my heart.

Heartaches and mistakes, Things that cannot be erased; Imprinted in our memories,The weights pressed on our chests.


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AH.LOY is so angry!
I shouldn't have give up, I should have continue running till the end without stopping! Useless shit. (Kill me please.)

Birthday!

CHRISTINA LEE SIEW MIN! HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TO YOU! :D
Hope you like the little surprise just now. Best wishes, Loves! ♥

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I rotted at home for the whole of afternoon doing nothing but online. Like seriously, I think it's a dumb thing to stay at home! :/ It's very boring, yesyesyes! And greatgrand.daughter was telling me that she went to find ___ and i was so agitated! Hahahah. I missed the chance again, but nevermind. I'll always have another chance, right? (: So yea, I asked her to jio me next time. Hopefully she will, if not I'm gonna ignore her, wahaha! (Just joking lah :D) My greatgrand.daughter is very cute okay! :D So random, hahah!

Oh ya, I've opened the hamper that sixsome and the rest gave me. Like alot of chocolates and tibits, hahah. They're very cute can? I took a long time to open it, cos it's like there's scotchtape all over. Hhaha. Whoever who wrapped it must have had a hard time. So yea, appreciated alot and thanks so much people! After eating all those I will surely gain weight. And that's your motive right? Hahah. Okay, I will surely grow fatter and let your see kay :D

And I've also opened the present jy and jt gave me! I'm very surprised!!!!! If your see this post, please note that I did laugh to myself when I saw 'that'. Hahah. Your very creative hor? (Zhen shi de.) But okay lah, I like it Hhahaha. Thanks (:

Ah mo, you too! You this cheeeky girl, how dare you go around to tell people what you gave me! So embarassing! Hahahah. But still, I like it cos it's green and polka dots! Hahahah. And the chocolates tooooo, :D Mo so fat! (;

Dumbasses de green board also very nice, hahaha! Those words from your are seriously very cute ahhh (: And my unglam pictures!! Hahhaah. Thankyou so much, love you all! :D

Yea mannnnnnn, AH.LOY is still very happy! :D I've finally turned 17 and I think it's gonna be a great year ahead! Muahahha! I'm so going to mug hard for O's and live life to the fullest manszx. I'm not going to waste my time on some 'stupid' things, lmao! :/ Must learn to be strong and stop emoing! Must learn to be optimistic and always think of the bright side manszx! I'm gonna take the right path and make the right choice like what someone told me, haha! Yes manszx, I don't want to live with regrets, so I'm gonna work towards my goal! AH.LOY CAN DO IT! ROCKS ON! \m/ 17! ♥

Hahah, Okay that's about it for today!
I'm gonna do my mt paper and enjoy tomorrow! Cheers people.
Nights! :D

ANDAND, Please click on the nuffnang ads on the left okay? Thanks! (:

Happy 17th Birthday! :D

Thankyou Mummy, Thankyou Sister, Thankyou Brother, Thankyou Niece& Nephew! Hhahah!

SIXSOME! :D

Lao Da, Lao Er, Lao San, Lao Si, Lao Wu, Xiao de!( And Jermyn) :D Love you all to the max! x10 Thanks for the surprises and wishes. Awww, thank you so much! LOVEEES! ♥

DUMBASSES! :D Thanks for the cake and card too, I'm surprised ah! (: Loveeeeeees! ♥ (*show bunny tooth) Hhahah.


TWIN! Thanks for the wishes and the dinner! :D
We had a great time together, dont we? Hahhaha.
LOVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEES! ♥

CHICKEN FAMILY! :D Kuanyi, Sharmaine, Felicia, Jasmine, Emalia! (And Yeelian) Thankyouuuuu! Thanks for singing birthday song and making me so embarassed! Hahha. Lovees! ♥

Last but not least, thanks faiz! :D You're oh-so-great!
Thanks for accompanying me and thanks for your wishes, I will remember de okay! :D THANKS AHHHHHHHHHH! LOVEEEEES! ♥

Thanks everyone for your wishes and all. Really appreciate it alot.
It was really a very memorable birthday. Muahhaha! AH LOY IS VERY HAPPY TODAY! Thanks to everybodyyyyyyy! :D:D:D:D

But the most embarassed thing I did was I fell into the deep drain. LAUGH AT ME PLEASEEEE! ): Okay, that's very unlucky too. And it's even more memorable eh, hahah! Okay nevermind.

I had a very sweet 17th birthday, thanks everybody! AH LOY LOVES YOU ALL ♥

Pissed.

It's not even a happy ending.
It's worst than everything.

What makes her so much better than me? What makes her just everything I can never be?


Please define the meaning of backstabber for me.
I seriously wonder what do you mean by backstabbing. In the first place, you didn't even get the facts right and started accusing me of backstabbing. Like hello? At least I felt sorry about what had happened in the past and I've realised something today and told you about it. At least I was truthful about my feelings. And you? You didn't even bother about explaining to me and started calling me a backstabber? Are you trying to side the person or what? I'm trying not to think so much but your actions show everything. I think I can already come to a conclusion lo, but you never want to admit. I think you simply got no guts too, you're a chicken eh.


If you say I'm backstabbing, what about you? You only know how to say those hurtful words to other people yet hate other people to call you names. Like wth? You really think you're very great about that? Trying to show off the ability of thinking all kinds of names to call other people? You don't even know you're hurting them, you always think that you're right and you're forever right. No one can ever beat you. Like wth? You only think about yourself and not others. You said I'm selfish and put myself first, but look who's talking. You are the one who's putting yourself first. Now what? Even after that, can't we be back to normal? You're just revenging in your own ways, and I know. You think I don't know anything? Lmao, I'm once a fool but Im not always a fool.


I'm hurt so badly now, but do you even care? I doubt so. You think you're just stating the facts that I'm like this. But wth, you're totally wrong. You don't even know me well and you claimed that you do? Sometimes I wonder if I didn't make that first move, will I get all this shit in the end. I bet you regret about it too. But hey, at least there was ONCE right. You're just like a idiot who can forget things easily and thinks that other people are the same like you. Please lah, No lor. If you think we are the same, you're oh-so-wrong! You have not change into a better person at all, not even once.


Why must I get all this shit? Why must I be the one suffering all these? Why don't you feel the way I feel? Why can you pretend that nothing had happened?


Hatred is all I can think for now. It's not the first time anyway, you should know it.

Slacking.

Mother Tongue Mother Tongue Mother Tongue! T.T 2 more weeks to go. I THINK I'm not going to survive. Been feeling so sick towards mother tongue like seriously. I don't even feel like doing the homework, paper2, EVERYDAY! :/ Intensive ends at 530pm everyday and i'll feel so lousy at the end of the day. After intensive still got to stay back for art, but we chose to pon it cos we're just tooooo lazy and toooooo tired. There's still like 2 more weeks and I seriously doubt I can survive lah! Shits x10! @.@

Looking forward to Saturday! I want my beauty sleep, I've been depriving for sleep every now and then. But when I lie on my bed I just couldn't close my eyes and have a good night sleep. Feeling so tired physically but my mind is telling me not to sleep. So I'll end up sleeping at around 2 and couldnt wake up for school! How sad. This is shit x20! @.@

However, days have always been lighten up with laughters around. Glad that I still have them around with me cause I won't feel so bored! But somehow, I just hate banded classes! Seriously hate it so muchhhhhh. (God knows why) Lmao. Whatever it is, my class rocks! my friends rocks! everybody rocks! (HA-HA, I feel so lame -.-)

And gawdddddddddd, have you encounter such thing as 'Love at First Sight'? Yesyesyes, I think it's so dam cooool! Let you guys see my love at first sight :































































































Hahahah, I think it's effing chio though it looks so common and such. Dump off the idea of having w705 and kept pestering my brother for this phone! Please agree with me that it's chio! Hahhaha. But if you dont agree, so be it :D My love at first sight, hahahaha! Mai siao siao! :/

Okay ah. I think I shall blog till here. (Someone fell asleep while watching tv!) How great -.- Haahha. Okay, goodnight people! ^^

I'm blogging, because life sucks so much recently! -.-

• Mt mock exam paper 1 result sucks like hell. Like worst of all. I dont like!
  
• These few days had been emoing alot, can't sleep well. So shitty. I dont like!
  
• Mt intensive took away time for coursework, I'm so lacking behind. I dont like!
  
• Hates the weather, rain and shine - hot and cold. I dont like!
  
• My study table is way toooooo messy. No time to pack it. I dont like!
• I feel so disorganised! Important worksheets everywhere. I dont like!
• Too stressed up = Eat alot. I dont like!
• It's Friday, but school ends late cause of Mt Intensive. I dont like!
• Been very vulgar and mean today. I dont like at allll!
  

But I'm still happy afterall! :D

• We're back to normal, no more cold war! I like!
  
• Dumbasses were great today! I like!
  
• Made a new friend, Brong! Brong's very nice but very lame at times. I like!
• Going to meet up with EvilTwin soon for some catching up. I like!
• Weekend is hereeeeee! I like!
• Birthday is coming. I like!
  

But somehow, that day doesn't seem to be a good day. There's mock paper and ptr, it's like omg. Everything is happening on that day, I doubt I'll enjoy this day. Saded. But still looking forward! :D

Okay, that's about it. Goodnight.
Brong is waiting for me. (Dont get the wrong idea) Hahahahah! :D

MT INTENSIVE!

Goshgosh! It's mother tongue intensive again! Seriously, I hate it so muchhhh! And guess what, I failed my mother tongue like againnnnnn. This time failed by that 0.5 mark, darn it please. So heartbreaking. But whatever, what's done is done - It's time to move on. Hahah, sounds so wrong! :/

Ehhhh. So yea, today is the start of mother tongue intensive. Went through our mid year paper and stuffs. Have work to be done, but I'm like 3/4 done! I'm not going to continue, cos I'm so sick of those chinese words. The passage is soooooo long! Lol. And I'm going to bed NOW! For your info, no FLEXI for mother tongue intensive students. UNFAIR OR WHAT? Lol.

& Because my olevel mother tongue exam is round the corner, I'm gonna refrain myself from using too much of computer. I pretty hope so! *Winks winks! I can duh. Gonna study real hard for this mother tongue paper and get a decent result! I don't want to retake again, it's so SICKKKKKKKKKKKK please! :/

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MOTHER TONGUE INTENSIVE! HERE I COMEEEEEEEEE!
3 MORE WEEKS, JIAYOUUUUUUUUUUUUU PEOPLE! :D

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It was truly disappointing, but I know I should be responsible for this. I'm really sorry, but please trust me. I didn't and I won't. Like what you've said, let's just let the nature to take its course. I'm just following my heart and I pretty sure what I want now. Let's just pray that one day it will happen, but again, letting nature to take its course. We'll wait, I promise - I will wait regardless of what will happen. :D

Long Weekends.

You drown in your sea of lies

Wishing all Mothers - HAPPY MAMA'S DAY! ♥

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I guess, it's been a great week for me :D Exams are almost coming to an end, left practical which is on tuesday and midyear will be over. Like I've said, I'm sure to flunk all my subjects. I'm not very proud of it, in fact, I feel so demoralised ): On friday, was art paper2 - guess what?! I DIDN'T FINISH COLOURING CANNNNNN! I knew it lor, within 3 hours how to finish drawing and colouring on a3 size paper! What's more I'm colouring the whole thing and not painting, of cos can't finish ahhhh! So what? Am I going to fail my art too? *Sighs. Enough of exams, I hate exams like seriously! Who don't? Hhahahs.


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Long weekends doesn't seem to be a good thing to me. Well, it's not a cool thing to stay home the whole day to rot you know. It's so boring at home. Tell me, what should I do? I'm gonna rot at home again! :/ But I'm looking forward for tomorrow *Winks! Sissy asked me out know :D I'm happy of course! Bahhahha!


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You know what .. I think my EvilTwin rocks like hell. Hhhaa, so random!


Okay, I dont know what to blog about. I'm gonna play Blitz in facebook! So fun manszx! :D Before that, I'm going to show your something coooooooool!

Smiley!!! Awesome yea!

Okayokay, I'm just being random. :D
Toodles!

CHOCOLATESSSSSSSS! ):

First of all, wanna wish my Mom a very Happy Birthday! :D I love her mansxz ♥

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AH.LOY craves for chocolates now! (Though she just ate it.)
Hershey's Hugs are so niceeeeeeee you know, I can't stop eating that :/ So yea, I think I'm gonna gain another few more kg. Plus nowadays, I had fastfood meals for like almost thrice a week! So sinful ya. But I don't care, I want my chocolatesssssssss! Chocolate makes me happy, you know :D I just ate the Hugs' chocolates, so I'm super happy now! :D

Okay, I think this post is totally crap :/ Can't help it ahhh, I'm just too bored! o.0
MATHS PAPER2 tomorrow, wish me luck. For your info, I think I've flunk all my subjects including my mother tongue! So yea, lucks lucks lucks! Rip mansxz.

Goodnight! :D

Awaits.

I don't wish to believe.

They spell LOVE.
♥

While waiting for my hair to dry, I shall blog about yesterday to kill time. (: ( For your info, it's exactly 1:00AM now! I'm gonna get darker eyerings, D: )


I went out to study with T&B, today was super funnny manzxszxsz! Hahahh. I kept laughing at everyone who walked past because I think they're so funny lor :P ( and I swear that I won't sit there again, distractions!! Hahah ) B stoned and stared around for almost 2hours, ( I think ) Stupid lor, wasted 2 hours stoning and staring!! Tsk! Studied till 6pm, T& me went off to somewhere to be 'detectives'. Hahahh. So funny can.. walked round and round, and we got nothing in the end! :/ ( But I think it's me who've got nothing ) Headed somewhere else and T went to find her friend, so I find a place and sat down to wait for her. And this small boy came towards me ..


Boy : HELLLLLLOOOO!
Me : *Smiled, Hello.
Boy : Ni zai zhe li zuo she me? ( What are you doing here? )
Me : Wo zai deng peng you. ( I'm waiting for my friend. )
Boy : Ni de peng you zai na li? ( Where's your friend? )
Me : Orhhh.. Ta zai na li.. *Point. ( She's there .. )
Boy : Ni de peng you zai na li zuo she me? ( What's your friend doing there? )
Me : *Smiled, zai deng peng you. ( Waiting for friend. )
Boy : Orhhh.. Ta de peng you yao lai le mei you? ( Is her friend coming? )
Me : Uh.. Yao lai le.. ( Coming.. )
*Just then, T called me and asked me to walk to bustop!
Me : Wo yao zuo le, Byebye! ( I'm going, byebye! )
Boy : *Smiled, Byebyebyebyebyebye!


I don't know what's wrong with this small boy. Hahha, but I think he's funny and too friendly can? Hahahah. *Kids nowadays are very clever, they know about alot of things and they talked alot! -.- I pretty hope my niece and nephew won't talk alot, if not I'd be so irritated by them. Muahahah :P


After I reached bus stop, waited for her awhile and we took bus to Chongpang. Had our dinner there and went back home! :D


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Something random :


Why I don't like to study at home.
1) My study table is toooo messy for me.
2) Food.
3) Television.
4) Computer.
5) My bed is too comfy that I will fall asleep anytime while studying.
6) NIECE!!! :/


Why I don't like to study outside(fastfood outlet)
1) Food.
2) Spend money! T.T
3) Distractions from passerbys (Hahah)
4) Not condusive environment.
5) Tend to spend time gossiping than studying. ( Hahah )


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Hahahha. I think I'm so lame, and I think I love to be lame! :D
Hahhaha, whatever! :D


Got to go sleep already. Have to wake up super early tomorrow!
Study study study! :D

You're so beautiful, So damn beautiful.
If only I have the chance to know you, But.. it's too late.
I know you won't accept me. ):

Unresolved.

A warm embrace, A stolen kiss. It's gone, all gone.

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Yesterday was Oh-So-Great! :D

Happy 17th Birthday, Chang Kuan Wai! ♥

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TADA! Brother wrote this for me. :D Thanks man, :D