Fluuuuuuuuuuu ._.

Because I'm a girl, I'll get a little too emotional.

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If only I could hibernate, drift away and see you when i wake.

SICKOs! I hate sickos! I was facebook-ing, and this guy came to have a small convo with me. Asking me nonsensical stuffs, kind of pissed me off -.- Such a *toot.

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• Some bastard made me teared a little today, stupid or what? -.-
• English lesson was fun! Practiced oral, laughed laughed laughed.
  
• Maths test was a headache, grandaughter and me went haywire.
  
• Still chionging my Sims2. *Winks.
• Postponed tuition again.
  

Tomorrow's my english prelim oral, nervous manszx. I hope I won't screw up in picture discussion. All the best to the 5Ns who are taking oral tomorrow! :D

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The 6s for now :

• SLIMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM down.
  
• STAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY focus.
• STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY hard.
• STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP thinking.
• STAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY positive.
• SURVIVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!
  

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Bye, update again this weekend.

It's never gonna change, never.
No matter what, No matter how, No matter who. Never.
Trust me,

Losing grip.

It was a moment, just a moment. Yet it made me so happy.
It wasn't a dream, It's real.

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Today like what sia, lessons were super slacking lo! Like almost every lesson also no teacher, tsktsk! Then I chiong my sims2 for 2 hours, and by recess time I only left with 56%! And guess what, I was dam stupid lo. I didn't save the game and I had to restart all over again. Like wth! ._. Played for 2 hours, half battery gone and I didn't save it! Arghhhh. So I continued playing during the free time and I'm like so crazy bout it. HAHA! Played till 3plus, only left with 10% then I stopped and had my power nap. 430, went for PE. Badminton again, but there was no space at indoor sports hall so we went out to play. Not bad not bad, :D Laughed out loud manszx! :D

After school I dam happy lo, kept laughing to myself. HAHAHA! :D *god knows why, you know why, I know why* :D FATFAT! Hhahah. Went for art awhile and home sweet home!

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A few more days to go.
Please make it come true.

Obsessed!

You know I want cha! :D

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AH.LOY is veryyyyyyyy happy! :D *god knows why, you knows why, I know why*

• Woke up late, skipped tuition.
  
• Second attempt, not that bad.
  
• Met sixsome, kite flying cancelled.
  
• Dinner at Sembawang, opposite Sembawang Shopping Centre.
• Sister's house to see Reagan, Wii-ed.
  
• Went to find somebody, and got followed 0.0
  
• Bus-ed back home.

School tomorrow! It's gonna be tough I guess, homework-revision-tuition-homework-revision-tuition! And it goes on, looking forward for the next weekend! :D

PS : I want to have a meal with you! Like seriously! ._.

Is this the end,
Or a dark beginning,
The battle once ended,
But the war not won,

On the verge.

All I ever wanted was to feel you inside me.
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YESTERDAY. Bffl's birthday, Happy Birthday to him! :D This is the don't know how many times saying happy birthday to him already. Hahah. And he's damn bias I tell you, he and his XD. Stupid ._. BIASED lah youuu!! Hhaha.
Yesterday was also the closure of syf, performed at UCC. It was great, and my mum came to watch tooooooo :D Felicia, KuanYi and Me wanted to take photo with the SiLing Sec's malay dancers but they went off early. ): Saded manszx. After everything, had our supper @ mac. It was 11plus till then, and we ate till 12plus then went home. Very tiring, after shower went to bed. Lol.

TODAY. Went back to school for oral practice. Damn her, she was late and dismissed us late. What's more worst was, she kind of scolded me for nothing. Cos I really did nothing wrong, arghhh. Pissed off with her manszx. I think she's got this super serious PMS ._.
After oral, went pavilion to look out for classmates. But not many were there so I went to buy the ingredients and rushed home. Bake bake bake, products weren't very pleasing. Can say it's a FAIL. Tsktsk :/ Bake till halfway, aniq called and asked if I can go for the practice. Actually I didn't want to go, but since they practicing till 6pm I agreed to go. After baking, packed up and bastard called asking if wanna meet to go together. Prepared, and went there together. Ended up, only 10 people were there and all were boys! -.- Went there, see them dance awhile then went off to meet twin. Roamed around chongpang then went home. Changed and went off to my nephew's 1st birthday. Cute nephew's 1 year old, he's so adorable :D Shall post some photos of him and my niece some other time. (: Anyway, Happy 1st Birthday to him :D

TOMORROW.
-Tuition.
-Kite flying& dinner with sixsome.
Hopefully it will be a great day too. :D

That's all. Ciaos!

I wish we are, I wish we are, I wish we are.
But I can only wish, will it every come true?
I've got a feeling, and I don't like it.
Hope it's nothing bad. *Pray hard.

Dance Practice.

Eighteen Chefs.

Rehearsal, Performance.

Those words.

Nothing can tame
What’s been released
No one will ever see this side of me
The side that scares me when I am reflected
I can’t stand to see it revealed
Not to you or to me
This isn’t what I wanted to be
More hollow than free
I’m not limitless
The boundaries are clearly set
And I can’t control my sobs
Tearing through my chest
Whatever happened to my happiness?
It’s been plucked away, piece by piece
One with every crack veined across my heart
Without your love
Look what I have become
A body full of hate
Without the hope of being with you
It turned me into nothing
Turned to ashes
Strewn across the sand
Maybe I’ll reach you then
Blown away on the wind…

- Anonymous.

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Yawns! I'm really very tired know, but I've got tons of things to do! Like my art, tomorrow's the exhibition andddddddddddd my canvas' still not done. Like what the toot please, I'm seriously very tired of this man. Now I know why the school wants us to finish during our june holiday. So that we got more time for other subjects. And it's so true, like everyday we can only be dismissed at 5, lastest 530pm. 530-630pm will be the only time we can do our painting. Till then, it's already going to be the end of July. I've yet to finish my canvas, the technique skills are also like shit. F sia, I don't know how to survive lah. I'm still trying my best lor, but no time means no time. If really want to force me to do faster, fine, shall give up on this. Yes, I'm serious. Very stressed up already, want to get rid of this burden asap! After which, I will concentrate fully on my other subjects. Yesssssssss. That's it, decision made. I shouldn't have come back right? Since I'm also not that kind, so why must I continue? Sighs, whatever?

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TODAY was not my day lo. Charger went haywire. Phone was dead before the start of lesson. Managed to charge it during the second period. Phone survived till afternoon. Was very forgetful. Forget to bring wallet and my leotard. Almost went bonker.

Full dress rehearsal at UCC. Set off at 12noon. Reached there. Rotted and waited for our turn. Listened music. Played Sims2. So fun! :D Ran through 1 full run. Another dry run. Back to school. Pack up. Changed. Rushed back home to take wallet. Eighteen Chefs with chicks. Laughters, laughters and laughters :D Home at 930pm.

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TOMORROW will be the exhibition. Many are going to laugh at my artwork. Okay, go ahead and laugh. Dont want care already.
After that, performance at ucc for closure of SYF. Guess this will be the last dance with them. Hopefully we will do our best.

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Okay, no mood already. Ciaos.

4th Week of school.

"STFU NOOB"

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Random : I think Domo's cute, like seriously, very cute! :D RAHHHH.

Okay, let's talk about school today. Well, I think school's been quite pleasant today except for my dam moodswing in the morning. Like wth? ._. (PS : Red's over, but I don't know why I'm having moodswings every now and then. Shit this.) So, while having moodswings - I didn't talk much till recess timeeeeee. Ai jio-ed me go art, we went and I asked her to teach me how to blend nicely. Ended up she didn't paint hers. Hahah, paiseh uh! :/ Ohoh, and because I didn't go down for recess, my super niceeee junior helped me buy my vitasoy up and treated me APPLES! She wrote me a note to ask me to cheer up and saying that the apples were her treat. But I only saw it after english lesson which was like one hour after recess ._. So nice of her, please be jealous! Bahahahh :D

Yepyep, other than that, I think today was quite alright. I wasn't really very restless cos I slept early last night -.- Ended up not doing my art, and some other things. Then Twin came to find me after school today and asked if I did the things that I'm supposed to do last night. I told her I didn't cause I fell asleep and she was saying " I knew it..." and laughed at me! Waliew.. Not my fault eh, was really tired that I fell asleep kay :/ Just now, I tried to do it, but FAILED! Wth lo. Think I need some help from the pro manszx. BOOOHOOO! I'm sucha loser, )':

AND YOU KNOW WHAT!!!!!! I'm so happy after school, :D Though I went home alone but I was happy cause something happened. God knows what! :P Yep, and because I was happy I went to buy kinder joy for my toothdecay-g.grandaughter and some fucker who wanted it. LMAO! :D But when I was queuing up, got one auntie just cut my queue like that -.- Like wth please, the queue already very long and I've waited for so long just to pay for my 'small things'. And yet she just cut my queue like that, typical or what siol? Then I got pissed off and rolled my eyes on her. Butbut, thinking of that incident that happened before that, my mood changed back to happy again. Bahahha! Stupid or what? :P

Yadah, reached home at around 715pm. Bathe and eat and used the computer for 10mins and went to do my revision. See that, I did revision okay! I want hao lian awhile, HAHAH! I was productive kay, cause I finished going through and writing down notes for tomorrow's test. Not sure if I'm going to take it not but just study in case I need to. Talking about tomorrow, I've got dance practice! Think I'm not going the practice cause I've yet to finish my art.. Sighs, Yalahhh. I'm the slowest among all. I know lahhhhh. If really cannot catch up, then will most prolly give up. Not that I really want to give up, but I hate the way they tried to push me. I know they meant well.. but... sighs.. ART IS KILLER NOW! 0.0 Whatever it is, I will still try my best to finish it by thursday. ( But I know it's impossible. ) Let's just see how far I can go .. *pray hard.

Okay ahhh, it's getting late already. Got to go now! CIAOSSSSSSSS.

PS : My study table's in a super big mess now. I've got no time to pack lahhh, and I hate the covering of the table. So flower-ish, I want to change it asap! Arghhh.
PPS : I crave for subway cooooookies! ):

710th.

Oh yes, this is my 710th post. *Winks.
Anyway, Happy 17th Birthday to buddy! Best wishes (:
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Okay ah, I don't really know what to blog about. I just know that I'm feeling very moody now. Once again, I got so affected by something. Sorry, I can't help it. Sighs, just hope that things will turn out better when the time is right. Yes? No? I don't know?
Alright ah, I'm going somewhere to rant/vent/shout/scream.

Half done.

*SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMS ._.
I've just completed my english compo, chemistry worksheet and physics tys. Look at the time now, it's 1:05AM! I'm like half dead already please. And this is only half done okay, the other half is the ARTTTTTTTTTTT! Looking at it, I know I'm not going to sleep tonight. This is shit x10.

I think I'm going to look like a zombie when I go back to school later on. (Nonsense?) Lol, whatever! Timeeee for art! CIAOSSSSSS.

Friends? Best Friends? Best Friends For Life?

Love is an emotion that bends the mind and twists the will.
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I know I'm suppose to be revising now, I know I've got alot to catch up on. I know I shouldn't be such an ass to be so affected by all these small little things. But I just can't help it you know. It's really a torture to be so far away, and it's not like a day or two. It's been so long, months. I didn't forget about anything at all, even if I've tried to forget - I failed to do so. You know, it's not easy and you can't possibly ask me to forget about everything overnight. It takes time and they've always been saying that Time is the best medication to heal your wound. Seriously, it's not. No matter how much time is given, my wound will never heal. In fact, I think it's getting deeper and deeper, more painful.

You know what I want. You know it very well, I've spelled everything out for you and I do hope you get what I mean. I guess the only thing I can do is to wait and wait and continue waiting.

And I know that this is going to affect me very much, but I really can't help it. Twin, I'm sorry. You should know how I feel and I hope you understand. I know you meant well for me, I know you want me to be happy. But, you know it's very difficult. After so long, then I realised that I still couldn't do it. I really can't, it's hurting so bad it's affecting me so much.

Can't let the music stop, Can't let this feeling end.
Cause if I do it, I'll all be over, I'll never see you again.

Monday blues.

There's no answers, no hints, just more complications.

& I'm almost full of gray.

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GAGA. It's the third week of school. As usual, monday blues ._. Well, guess I was too worn out as I've only got 4hours of sleep last night. In between lessons, I got very restless so I just sat there and stone-d. Silly thoughts filled in my mind and yea, I emo-ed ._. Stupid or what? Lol. But after awhile, I'm back to normal :D Oh wellllllllllll ..

And you know what, I really cannot stand combine humanities lessons. It can be real bored and tiring to listen to the teacher talking for 1 whole hour. Yes, just like today - I fell asleeeeeeeep! ._. The person beside and behind me also cannot tahan. So we were like asking "Are you falling asleep already?" Hahah. Somemore it's an afternoon lesson, right after lunch. I swear it's super duper sleeeepy. Zz. Please teach me how can I keep myself awake manszx. Perhaps I should try eating sour sweets eh? Sounds great. HAHA! ._.

Ahhhhhhh.. I don't know what to blog about already. I'm sooooo soooooo tired after a full day in school, 2hours of tuition and 1 hour of revision! Shit this manszx. I've only covered half of a chapter and I've got 1 and a half more to go. I think I cannot go any further, too tired to think or store anything inside my brian. Hahah. Therefore, I going to bed after blogging! :P

PS : I like my tuition teacher, she's so funny and AWESOME! Hahah.
PPS : I want to finish my canvas ASAP! This is killing me manszx.

Okay lah, I want to end here alreadyyyyyy. Goodnight. :D

New blogskin

I locked my blog because I was doing my blogskin, so if next time I lock my blog again it must be this reason. I guess there's no other reasons why I'll lock my blog. So yep. (:

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I'll update again at night. Stay tune :D

what the hell?

I'm feeling so suckish noowwwwwwwww!
Was browsing through 'something' and saw 'something' which makes me go "What the hell?" and "LOL?". Seriously, it disgust me with the every little thing. I also don't know what else can I say ah, think I'll just pretend not to know anything - like duh. And now what, everything's like a piece of shit to me. Laugh-my-ass-out manszx -.-

Random : I rock, You sucks. Yes, you, you, you.

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It's just a month away, will you still remember?
If only .. then it would be .. which probably could be ..
But not anymore ..
Will you still remember?
ITISMY. SMTOD.

can't let the music stop

David Archuleta - Touch Your Hand.

Saw you from a distance
Saw you from the stage
Something about the look in your eyes
Something about your beautiful face

In a sea of people
There is only you
I never knew what the song was about
But suddenly now I do

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

I see the sparkle of a million flashlights
A wonderwall of stars
But the one that’s shining out so bright is the one right where you are

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

Saw you from the distance
Saw you from the stage
Something about the look in your eyes
Something about your beautiful face

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hand
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

Can’t let the music stop
Can’t let this feeling end
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never see you again
Can’t let the music stop
Until I touch your hands
Cause if I do it’ll all be over, I’ll never get the chance again
I’ll never get the chance again

Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Reach out as far as you can
Only me, only you, and the band
Trying to reach out to you, touch my hand
Yeah, yeah, yeah

thoughts and senses.

You can never go too far.
It's when you don't go far enough that you come unstuck.

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I wish I'm fine, but that's all lies to my mind.

Random : I hate people who steal. Idiot or what?

Most unbelievable thing. I actually finished my chemistry worksheet within 20mins or so. Okay lah, I think it's no big deal also. Laugh-my-ass-out! o.0 I'm just being random, like duh.

Okay, let's see what I've done for the whole day. Firstly, I woke up at 10plus but I could have sleep even longer! But because I had stomach upset for the whole night and I couldn't sleep well. I guess before I went to bed, I ate too much junk food which causes me to have stomach upset. Oh well, I'll remember this - No junk food before bed, if not, kiss goodbye to beauty sleep. Sounds wrong, but who cares. Hmmm, okay, so after I woke up I did nothing but just lie on my bed and listen to music. Then had my breakfast and read a book, did some maths work and continued reading. Went out to chongpang for lunch-home-went out for short meeting-home and watched tv till my tutor came. Had tuition till 10pm. Slack till 11plus then started doing my chemistry, I thought I would take about an hour or so to finish it. Nevertheless, I finished it within 20mins! *Winks. Yea mannnnn, my day was so not wasted! :>

PS : Gonna finish that book by this week! (:
PPS : No more fastfood/chocolates for AH.LOY! :< There's school tomorrow and I'm still awake at this hour! Gosh, why am I having insomnia lately? What happen manszx, this sucks alot please, I want my beauty sleep! Rahhhh! @.@ Guess I'm just gonna force myself to sleeeeeep! ): This is so not like me! Shit this
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GOODNIGHT, GOODBYE!
:<

The mistakes.

The right, or the wrong.
It's all about the steps you take.

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Ohwell, it had been quite a busy and tiring week. And hello, it's just the first week of school reopen :< I guess it's gonna be like this till the end of O's. Wish me good luck please. Booohoo! I hate the long hours in schoooooool! It's driving all of us crazy manszx. For the whole week, I reached home at around 7pm - And by the time I bath and eat and everything, it's already 830pm. So, I will slack around and watch tv and not settle down infront of my study table to do some work. This is so not the right thing to do but I can't help it :< I wonder how the rest survive. It's like, the long hours in school is already very tiring for us. They still got the energy to do somemore work when they're at home. I guess they really have the discipline and effort. Sighs, must really learn from them manszx.

For the whole week, I think I only did some work for one night. And I did it because of G.grandaughter! We agreed to finish all the basic questions of trigo and whoever didn't finish is a .. PIG! Hahah, please don't say we're childish or what. Cause I think it really works, I stayed up to do the questions while she woke up at 4am to do. Just because we don't want to be so called the PIG! Hhahah. Though we never finish ALL the basic questions, at least we tried as many questions as we can. Well, I guess there's more to come! :D My G.grandaughter said she rocks and I stone, -.- I admit that she rocks, but I dont think I'm stone. HAHAH! Okay, that's lame. The word for the week - " LOSHH ". Hhahah. I think we're so mean, but whatever! We need laughters to keep us alive! :D Lol.

What about my art? Hahah, I'm only 20% done while the others are already 50%, some even 100% done. Uh, I can't go any faster due to the time I have for art. But I'll still try to do faster and hopefully finish it as soon as possible. Yea. Other than that, I think I'm still alright and I still can survive. (:

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YOUTH DAY HOLIDAY! So great so great! :D And yesssssss, it's the start of a new week again. Am gonna start my revision! Am gonna stop all the distractions and concentrate on studies for now! Yessssssss ahhh!!!!!! :D I know I can do it, bahaha! Jiayou manszx! *Winks.

Alright ah, I think I'm going to bed now though I'm still not tired. My girlfriend is waiting for me and she's gonna accompany me till I fall asleep! *Winkswinks! Brong, are you jealous? HAHA!
Goodnight.

PS : AH.LOY needs to go on diet! HAHAH!

Somehow it is.

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The Script - Before the worst.

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day that you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain

So explain to me, How it came to this
Let's take it back to the night that we kissed
It was Dublin city on a Friday night
With vodkas and coke, I was (...)

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?

But everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before today
Before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong

There was a time that we'd stay up all night
Best friends, yeah, talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to lose but so much to gain

Are you hearing me? Cz I don't wanna miss
That you would drift on memory bliss
It was Grafter street, on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you were mine for life

We were thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?

But everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on
Was trying to take it back before it all went wrong

Before the worst
Before we met
Before our hearts decided it's time to love again
Before today
Before too long
Let's try and take it back before it all went wrong

special yet saddening

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! :D

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Uh, finally, my internet's back and I can use the comp again. No need to borrow Twin's lappy for some "checky". Hahah. But I doubt I'll use it so frequently like before, I'm just gotta be used to it. And yea, I MUST!

And you know what ..
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I got to end here cos I need to revise my maths for tomorrow's retest.
So I'll prolly update again pretty soon. (:

Special yet saddening.
It left me to think about it till now.
I'm still wondering why. Just why?