Reality striking the blurred conscience.

(Amazement)

What a freaking day! Drop-dead. Laugh-out-loud (:

Let's start off with school, went to school with that stupidhead and

we didn't talk at all. How strange :/ Then I kept thinking is it we've like

drifted apart or whatever shit, but no we didn't. Lol. Forget it.

Lessons were pretty alright, had mother tongue-history-maths.

I'm so freaking in need of help for maths, I'm so lost at Matrix. (Dam it)

Don't make me hate maths again, urg.

Dismissed at 1230pm, actually should be 130pm but whole class pon

self study! Yes, whole class! Hahah, then went to meet Prettyyy! Like finally!

Gave her present, and she gave me a card. Eww, so sweet lah :D

She said if she really opened chocolate shop, she's gonna give me 20% discount

but must bring the card along to identify! Hhaha, she's so funny lah!! :D

Thanks pretty! I Love Pretty too! ♥♥♥

After that, ate lunch with Jasmine&Sharmaine in school.

Trained down to Bedok for work. It was a long journey, 1 hour trip :/

Lol, it was a very funny experience I tell you. Hahah, both of us were

laughing our ass off. :P We want to laugh out loud, but cannot let the

person know we laughing at him so we have to laugh softly. Must gek so hard,

stomach cramp lah. Hahah. But it's really funny! :P

Left at 6pm, had dinner at nearby coffeeshop. Then trained back to Yishun

for bball. BOOOOOOOO! Didn't get to play again T.T Nevermind.

Went home at 9plus, then stupidhead was angry with me bcos I accused

him of something. Lol. Keep spamming him until he reply :D

(Okay, I know I'm wrong - I'm sorry! :/ )

And yes! Tomorrow's outing gonna be fun! (Smileys!)

Can't wait :D

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Cheerup people, don't be sad anymore! We must learn to be stronger,we can't

let them know our weakness. Alright? Daughter-in-law, jiayou together kay?

We will make it till the end (:

Never be replaced.

(Yes,you)

Oh yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! Finally changed my blogskin eh, :D

Oh-so-loved! Bahaha (:

Today is so randommm! :D (Happy birthday to Yankai)

2 hours of English, 3 hours of Art :/ Dismissed at 1pm.

Lunched with J, went home.

Working tomorrow, hope it's alright.

Short post for today, very tired but have to finish chinese homework.

Boohoo! Goodnight.

Blissful to have you around.

(I love you)

怎么了 你累了 说好的 幸福呢
我懂了 不说了 爱淡了 梦远了
开心与不开心依稀数着你在不舍
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻
我都还记得
你不懂了 说好的 幸福呢
我错了 泪干了 放手了 后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着
要怎么停呢

TODAY! (Happy Birthday to Amin)

A very boring day, English-History-Recess-Maths-MotherTongue.

Did some situational writing during English period, half the time talking

to Joelynn&Jasmine. Haha. In the end must chiong the writing :/

After which was History, started off with new chapter and we took down

the notes. At first was paying much attention, but was too restless so I

just copied blindly and didn't listen to what teacher said, one ear in another

ear out. Lol. Very bored, very very bored! ):

Then was recess, didn't go down cos nobody wants to go down. So just

stayed in class and chitchat with them. Hah-hah, (:

Next was Maths lesson, teacher started off with Matrix.

It's quite an easy topic, but I'm still quite blurrrrr! -.- Nevermind, Hahah.

Then during MotherTongue lesson, flared up again. Oh well.. pms I guess.
Emo off but Crinana came to sit beside me then Jianyou joined in (:

They're so funny I tell you, Hahah.

DISMISSED AT 130pm! So freaking early for the first time.

I'm still very bored now! Urgh.

Tomorrow's gonna be a better day(?) I hope so.

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"The heart maybe broken, like how leaves wither. But it wil be mend back,

just like how new leaves grow"

Eww, isn't this touching enough? Bahaha! Copyrighted please! :/

Thank you for your words, will remember in heart. *Lovely :D

Kuanyi-Jasmine-Peimei.

(Random)

Sorry people, was doing my blogskin so I locked up my blog and

forgot to open again! :P Now it's open again, bahahah :D

But my blogskin's still half done, Well..

Today!

Woke up at 11plus, kinda lazy to get off my bed - Hahah.

Ate and went online, was suppose to meet J at 1pm but delayed.

Then my mood was kinda bad due to some reasons, Lol. But after that jiu

back to normal (: So met up with J and I went for my haircut. T.T

Very sad, veryvery sad! The person cut short my hair, I want my length! ):

I kept whining to them, cos I really very sad. Wanted to only trim my hair

and keep the length cos I want back my long hair. But.. ):

How much more longer must I keep my hair till it's long enough? ):

After that, trained to Toa Payoh with J and K. Was rushing cos we were

late for meeting the person. Met up and took the stocks, (dammmm it)

We feel like we've been cheated, and we were all so annoyed!

Like kena scam by people, the feeling's so Urgggg.

After that went around the hub, it's so boring there! Nothing to shop,

(Saw Joelynn& son at tpy station there, Lol! So coincidence!)

then trained to City Hall wanted to go for the job interview but was

closed cos today's public holiday! -.- No choice, so we walked to suntec

city. Took very longgggggg to reach there, walk here walk there!

Blabla - Had our dinner there, ate nasi lemak and we had to stand up

to eat T.T How pathetic, lol. After that, bought sweet potato and donuts

home! (: Trained back at 9plus, reached home at 10plus and was so freaking

tired on the way back. But after bathing, feel very refreshed! Hahah.

Ate chicken rice and the sweet potato, so called my supper! (I'm gonna be

so fat) Booooooooooooo! Hahaha.

Okay, that's all for today. Gonna continue doing my blogskin and off

to sleep! Got to go back school tomorrow, must sleep early yo! :D

Nights.

Swelling my heart, it saved me from the dark.

(I've got to learn to be stronger)

You're the remedy I'm searching hard to find,

To fix the puzzle that I see inside.

Late entry again, Well.. can't get to sleep you know. Lol.

Very bored today, finished watching The Legend of Brown Sugar Chivalries

yesterday. Omg - It's very nice I tell you! Finished within 3 days and on

the second night, I cried like shit. Lmao. It's oh-my-god-touching T.T

Maybe I'm too emotional, so will cry easily - Hahah, can't blame me ya :/

Can't wait to watch other new shows, So bored without youtube-ing - Lol.

Guess I'll have to continue watching Fated to Love You (:

Slept at 5plus the night before, woke up at 11plus I think.

Asked Mummy to wake me up earlier so can go market with her, but she

said I was sleeping like pig(?) Okay, whatever!

Woke up, ate and went online cos I forgot to send mails which I was suppose

to do it before I go to bed. Lol. Faster send, blabla then went to prepare.

Out with J to look for jobs again, we went town area this time round.

Sad to say, it was my first day of redness. (Dammmmmm it)

I got so so so cramp that I could hardly walk! Precious then walked all

the way to help me buy a cup of hot milo (Thanks so much! :D)

while I sat at one place in great pain. I swear it's the greatest cramp I

ever had! (Dammmmm it once more, Lol)

Nearly cry out cos it's really unbearable, (Super -.-) So I've got no choice

but to train back home. But on the way back, I was feeling much better.

Till we reached Yishun, I'm like perfectly fine - back to normal.

Went Northpoint, initially wanted to get my Taro turnover but ended up

buying other stuffs. Then J suggested to go arcade, so we went.

Good things happened! :DD (Smiley smile smile! Lol)

First, we played the jackpot thingy, try your luck to win the tickets.

The first time we played, we got 9 tickets then after that we tried again

and Precious got the Jackpot! 35 tickets!!!!!! :D

Add up the tickets got 44, wanted to exchange for 2 pencils but short of

2 tickets! Wth, the person also can't close one eye, Urg.

We tried again, then finally got the tickets and exchanged for the pencils!

Precious won but she gave the pencils to me, (Thanks so much again! :D)

I like the pencil of course, because it's Bunny! Well... Hahah.

Okay, then she played her game after that jiu went back home.

Except for the unbearable pain, I still enjoy my day! (:

Thanks Precious! (:

&& I finally chatted on the phone with stupidhead! :D

Another happy thing, bahahha! I can't wait for Fridayyyyy! Wooohooo.

He promised and hope he won't put aeroplane again, Lol. (:

Starting E3 camp on Tuesday, -yawns! Got to wake up so early which

I think I won't be used to it, Lol. Nowadays so late then sleep, suddenly must

wake up so early abit weird. Hhaha. I dont want to sleep early too, I dont like

to be early bird! Bahhahaha :D

O's mother tongue re-exam is coming, 5th of nov! T.T

Such a nice date, but have to take exam - Wish me luck eh! Lol.

&& their going to finish their O's too! Wish them all the best for the rest

of their papers! I'm sure they're going to do very well (:

WaaaaaaaaaaTahhhhhhhh!

Going 4am already! Have to go to bed now if not I cant wake up tmr!

Going out with J to look for job again! This time round, I won't want to

look for jobs halfway then cramp again! If not I'm gonna hit my stomach for

being so 'bu zhen qi' Lmaoooooooooooo! Joking (:

Goodnight people!

ONE LAST THING BEFORE I FORGET TO POST!

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HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY TO

DAUGHTER-IN-LAW, JOELYNN LIM!

I lovelove you manymany! Bahaha (:

Enjoy your day, ♥

Happiness&Love.

(Peace out)

Life is fair or not.

Having burdens is a good thing or bad.

I'm confused and vexed over certain issues, bothers me quite much.

Been thinking quite alot lately, those good things as well as bad things.

Deep thoughts - I guess I can only keep to myself, sometimes it better to

keep quiet(?) Well.. it's hard. (Sighs)

Perhaps, I've got to learn to be more optimistic ):

I can only blame myself for being so pessimistic all the time and

got into so many troubles, (Sighs even more)

I also wish to be optimistic, but how(?) It's easy to change for the worst, but

it's a little challenging to change for the better. Yes,No(?)

I can't get to sleep again. It's 4:20am already.

So many thoughts, kinda driving me crazy. But the good thing is that

at least my heart isnt that pain anymore. (Well..well..)

I had nightmares the night before yesterday, scare me off! ):

I thought my nightmares will stop, but it came again.

Hope tonight .. ):

Maybe that's the reason why I can't get to sleep.

Hmmmm, hard to say.

My head's spinning - Dam it, I feel so old nowadays! I don't get head

spin in the past, now, I'm getting it almost everyday.

(Sighs, sighs, sighs!)

Shall I get some sleeping pills and pop it inside my mouth every night?

Laugh-my-ass-out! (:

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When I wake up, the first thing I want to see is a text from stupidhead!

Oh pretty please ): I super miss himmmmmm ):

This lonliness rooted itself in my heart.

Deleted my recent post, guess I'm too harsh too implusive.

Sorry! ): Glad that things are clear now, woooohooo! :D

Let me recall what happened yesterday..

Was woken up by his morning calls, prepared and ate my breakfast at home.

For the first time, I finished my breakfast at home! Guess I was too hungry.

Haha. Weather wasn't that good, so dad drove me to school (:

Very bored in school, waited& waited for time to pass. Haha.

Got our report book and the timetable for e3camp. No yearbook! ):

Dismissed at 11am, went to eat with him. Then uh, when going home that

time I showed jiaobin& ignored him. ): Very pissed off lah.

Mummy asked why reached home jiu give that face, lmao.

Moodswing lah~ Sorry stupidhead!

Online-d then went to take a nap. After nap, was feeling much better.

Felt very guilty for showing attitude to him, texted him but didn't reply ):

I feel so useless lah, everytime angry for no reason then he have to suffer.

Sighs, I hope I won't do it again. If not bad things going to happen! T.T

SORRRRRRRRRRYYYYYYYY STUPIDDDDDDDDDDHEADDDD! ):

In the evening, accompany J to woodlands library to return books.

Then jiu went to borrow books too, since Im so free at home. Lol.

Went causeway point, intended to look for jobs(?) But don't dare ask,

or maybe we're too picky? Hhaha, I admit I am. (:

& I accompained her to eat dinner!!!!!!!!! Fastfooooood!!!!!!!!!

Forget it, I will control myself for not eating fastfood this week! Yea (:

Bus back home.

Online-d and I watch The legend of brown sugar chivalries. Lmao.

Initially, I thought it'd be very boring sort of show. But quite nice lah, though

it's abit lame at certain parts. Hhaha. I got new show to watch again, bahaha!

At least better than nothing to do eh. :P

Slept at 2am, blablabla. Wokeup at 11plus today, ate breakfast and

continue watching. Hahah. Then stupidhead said he's bored, so I went to

accompany him. Lol (: He sent me homeeeeeee! :D

Nothing much happen today, just another pleasant day! (:

Got to go watch my show! Bahaha.

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There's so many things that I want to tellya, but I dont know how to

put in words. I'm afraid I might hurt you once more, but it hurts even

more when I keep all inside my heart. Can you give me one chance to let

me talk to you and let me say what I want to tell you?

You know I can't stop thinking, you know I can't stop questioning

I can't help it too, I feel very terrible too but do I have a way? ):

It's killing me..

Feelings consume everything along this line.

So freaking upset about something, that it bothers me so much.

Well, I guess what I'm doing was right. To control, and let it go.
I'll try very hard, because I want every moment to be the greatest.

I can only say, I'm happy nowadays because my life's improving better

and better each day. Of course, I'm also happy because we ain't the same

like last time, maybe because certain things had changed. Well.. it's a good thing.

Hope this would continue.. forever(?) Freaking impossible.

As I've said, life's been good recently. I've got no more nightmares, no

more wild thinkings. Perhaps I've overcome the fear inside me? I wish

I had, because I don't want such things to happen again.

It's gonna be so complicated, so heart-breaking. I don't want anymore

separations, it hurts so bad yea. Sighs.

Don't know what's more to say too.

I'm lost for words, seriously, I still can't get over what had happened.

Sad is the only feeling, hope it will be a better day.

Going back to school later on, got to wake up at 6am and I'm not sleeping still.

Go back to school just to get report book, timetable for studycamp and

get our butts down in the hall to listen to crap. Dam it.

Today's post is kinda weird, I find.

& It's been so long since I've last visited my private blog.

Gotta find some time to update about recent life. Let go of hard feelings.

That's the way! (Whatever)

Got to go get some rest, or maybe do some flashbacks.

I must improve myself.. (Hmmmm.)

Nights.

I just want a happy ending with you.

Yes you, my stupidhead.

I love youuuuuuuuu, manymany! ♥♥♥

My one& only love ♥

(Mr.Pighead!)

I love my stupidheaddddddddddddddd! (:

Hello people! I'm blogging early today, 11:25pm! (:
No pictures for today, too lazy to find. :/

Feeling so shag now, slept at 430am yesterday and woke up at 9plus.
Prepared - Off to meet stupidhead :D
Trained to Amk and took bus 135, trying so hard to find ParkWay
Parade Shopping Centre. Took us about an hour to reach there.
Alighted after the shopping centre but couldn't find any sign
of EastCoast park, called and asked around but they said they took cab
down. Yep, so we decided to cab down to EastCoast too. Less than 5mins
I guess, lols. Reached, and we took a long time finding them.
Cos the bbq pit was so far away! We thought we went the wrong direction.
(Stupidhead don't even know what's left and right!) Hahah.
Settled down awhile, stupidhead went off to find the rest of the boys at
landshop. Then the girls went inside the water to play ball. Lol.
I didn't bring extra clothing so didn't get so deep down the water.
We played monkey, dam funny! Haha. In the end, my shorts got so wet
and my shirt kena abit! T.T Booohooo.

After that, back to bbq pit and I ate something. Wanted to find the guys
in landshop, so we walked all the way. But realised we went the wrong landshop.
We played over there instead, since there's not alot of people there.
First time trying DDR& Parapara. Hahah, very funny I tell you.
So noob at ddr, but enjoyed. (: After that, walked all the way back to bbq pit.
Cam-whored with classmates, we jumped& jumped& jumped. Hahha.
I like the pictures man! (: Will get it from them and upload it soon.

Blabla, hurt my knees so didn't play captain's ball with them.
See them play also very funny (: They played till 6plus then went to bath.
While waiting, sat there and watched the guys kicking the ball around.
Hahah. After that, most of them going home. Followed stupidhead and friends
to landshop again as they want to game another time. (Daughter-in-law was
so pissed off at the same time she's also emoing, hope she's fine now)
So while waiting, smsed till I fall alseep! -.- Haha, then going home at time
they dont want to walk so far to the bustop so we find the nearest bustop.
Which will stop at Bedok interchange, but the bus 830pm then come.
Went mac and some of them had their dinner. (They finished their food
within 15mins!) Hahha, while walking to the bustop, jq asked if want
to lobang home. Agreed and waited for his father to come.
Walked around, and the guys played the soccer thingy. Very funny lah.
They wanted to play longer but the ball keep going in, Hahha.
Blabla, waited till 9plus then jq's father came.

Was such a long journey, then halfway it started to rain.
Stupidhead and me sat infront so we didn't kena so much. While the rest
were all wet, hahaha! (: All said want to enjoy, lols. But the lorry went
too fast and they complained it was too cold. Haha.
Alighted at Yishun mrt station and I walked home. My mood was
so dam good lah. Got so much laughters from them :D

Ohoh, and Sumo called me! (: Then I passed the phone to mk hahaha.
He's so dam happy lah, keep smiling. Then they desiao him, lol.
Chatted with her awhile and hang up the phone. Cos it's expensive yea?
Hope after the 10days she'll come back in one piece. Haha.
She's complaining that the toilet's disgusting all that and the food were not
very good. Lol, she'll be fineee I guess (: My sumo's strong, hahhaa.
MISSSSSSSSSSYAAAAAAAAAAAA! ♥

My post is rather long today, hahahs.
I'm happppy today!!! Veryvery happy. All thanks to them (:
Also happy cos I've confirmed the hoodies, and gonna make payment tmr.
Meeting up with shop owner! She's so sweeeeeet :D
Veryvery happppppyy!!! :DDD

(Daughter-in-law, don't emo anymore! Everything's gonna stay the same
no matter what. Must believe in yourself as well as others. Sometimes, as
girls we just got to understand alittle? We must change our way of thinking.
Cheers! Loveeeeyaaaaa! ♥)

Gonna watch hotshop ep 13 and get to bed soon.
Meeting J in the morning to find jobs, and there's tuition in the evening tmr.
Booooohoooo, wish me luck! I want to get a job asap! ):

Goodnight.

I LOVE STUPIDHEAD! ♥♥♥

Niece& Nephew! :D

(Kids are adorable!)

Blogging at late hour again! Booohooo :/

It's 2:36am! There's class bbq later on at EastCoast, that time still

look forward for this day but no more! ): Like not alot of people going,

daughter never go, ): So not fun, somemore bbq-ing in the afternoon.

Heat stroke(?) Hahah, no lah. Just kidding, will see how later! (:

Meeting stupidhead later on tooo! & we're going together :DD

I'm sososo happppyyyy! "Very long" never see him already! T.T

I MISS STUPIDHEAD!!!!!!!!!! ♥

Went for tuition today, everything was alright.

After tuition, bused down to 200plus there to wait for Jasmine's brother

to fetch us to Orchard. His car is oh-my-god HOT!

I like the design inside the car, nice lah I tell you! (:

We reached at around 1pm and were late for Pop/Lock lesson. Ewww ):

So we took up Hiphop and StreetJazz then, it's so awesome! :D

But I wasn't feeling well, so towards the end I was quite restless.

StreetJazz is niceeeeee! Enjoyed ourselves! (:

After the try-out went Fareast then Cineleisure.

Dont know what's wrong with my stomach today, kinda weird?

Went back at around 5plus, and I slept all the way till 9pm! (:

Headache& many headaches! Ate my dinner at 10plus and couldn't

finish, just had a few spoon and was full. You know, my bad stomach! ):

Ate my medicine, went online and blogshop! (:

Gosh, can't find any job at the moment. Lobangs, anybody? ):

I needa work asap! MONEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY! ):

Chalet's in december! I neeeed moneyyyyy! Any kind souls just intro

me jobs?! BAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

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Disappointment.

(Just a little upset, not emo!)

And it's you and me and all of the people, And I don't know why

I can't keep my eyes off of you.

Changed my blogsong again! Bahahahah! :D

Heard this song over the radio! By Neyo - Miss Independent (:

I like the rythme& tune (:

Didn't update for 2 days! Guess I'm just too lazy ya? Lol.

Let me recall what happened on Friday, 171008.

It's that stupidhead and me's lovely date! Bahahah. *Secrets.

Supposingly, we planned to go for a movie but was cancelled ):

Went to see the doctor with Mummy in the morning, I ate the medicine

and slept all the way till 3plus(?) Received a text from stupidhead

at around 1plus, and I was so shag, he said his stomach

wasn't feeling good and told me not to force myself to go since I'm sick.

So our movie cancelled, and I went back to sleep! ):

In the evening, I was feeling much better and decided to go send

Sumo& the rest who are going for the Shandong trip.

Left at 11plus and sumo's dad drove us home. Reached home, ate medicine

and sleeeeeeeep! (Of course, I used comp for a while)

Yesterday, Mummy woke me up at 9plus and said she's bringing ah gong

to see the doctor again. Slept back and woke up at 12plus.

Sumo texted me! She told me she've reached there and her last word was

"Loves". Bahahah, gonna miss her alot ya! ):

Rotted the whole day at home, but I search for jobs over the internet.

It's so difficult to find jobs lah! But I need a job badly, $$

Onlined the whole day, practically playing wahjong the whole afternoon :P

& I kept eating and eating, chocolates, biscuits& candies! Bahahah.

So boring uh, but tomorrow's gonna be a great day.

Have tuition in the morning at 10am, (& now it's 3:24am!)

After tuition, going for the dance try-out at Orchard there. I took up Hiphop

and Pop/Locking! Hope it's fun! (: Maybe after the dance, going down to

Bishan for the interview. Ah, whatever! Just want to find a job asap!

Bored siol, I can't get to bed now!

Dont know what to do also, finish watching Hotshot - waiting for ep to come out.

Stuck at Fated to LoveYou. Any new shows coming out? Lol.

Bored, Bored, Bored!

I want to go out and playyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! (:

(:

Heyo! Going to blog for awhile before I go to bed. (:

Just ate medicine, and it's like finally I'm taking panadol T.T

Fear of taking medicine because of what had happened last month. Urg..

Forget it, Mummy's taking me to see the doctor tomorrow morning!

These two days kept arguing with Mum, Zzz.

& Now, it's like the whole family's sick please! First is my niece and me,

followed by my ahgong and mum. I think my dasao also sick, cos I saw

her eating medicine! Gosh, what happened?! What virus is going on?

Everybody's like so sick, Precious was sick but recovering already.

Bread also sick, today went for tuition - teacher also sick!! Urg..

Actually wanted to go for intensive today, but I wokeup late(?)

I set my alarm at 7am, and guess what? My phone's timing is not the same,

so the alarm didn't ring and I cannot wakeup!

Then jy smsed me, wokeup and saw the time - 9plus!! I know I'm late,

I also lazy go school so I skip school again! ): Sorry partner, Sorry daughter!

Feel so guilty lah, skipped intensive for 3 days! Only went for 1 day and did

nothing much.. gonna wait till E3 then teacher's free. Gonna work hard

for my re-exam! ): Hope I can do better(?) Wish me luck.. Lol.

Tomorrow morning gonna see doctor, then needa go out but dont know

if Mummy allow! She scolded me for 'running about' when I'm so sick.

But well, it's not that I dont want to stay home. It's that I really cannot

stand how my niece is yelling& crying away at home! Got so pain in my head

that I needa go out for some 'fresh air' Lmao (:

Whatever! Hope my family recover soon! If not.. very nosiy! Lol.

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Stupidhead let me go for my 2nd piercing, bahahahaa!

Thank you for brightening up my day today.

Lots of love ♥♥♥

I miss my childhood :<

Look at the above photo, young& innocent. Lol.

I really miss my childhood, really really do.

No troubles, No nothing.

Now..

It's sooooooo different..

Everything's out of control, maybe it's meant to be like this.

Fineeeeeeee.

BYEBYE

DEAD.

My niece, So cute right? :D

I've got nothing to update about. Life's so.....
Nothing is possible now.

Peimei Has died..

No pictures for today, too lazy to go find.
Both my niece and me fell sick together, Lol(?)
She's like more sick then me, she vomitted dont know how many times and
refused to drink water and eat porridge! So kelian ):
My neck there got one lump, mummy said it's ulcer! Cos I got sore-throat
then got dont know what ulcer at my throat so got lump(?) True? Lol.
I don't know, I just know that I'm very xinku now! ):

Texted stupidhead, but guess his phone is not with him now.
Hope he reply me soon! & He's coming back tomorrow, ahhhhh~
STUPIDHEAD, REPLY MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! ):

Drinking the stupid medicine, sucks! ):
I hate to be sick, urgh. ):

Going to sleep now! Not going school tomorrow! ):

Edited :

Stupidhead replied, but.. ): Nevermind, at least he cares! ):
Shall wait till he come back. Loves.

A song I love very much, Rihanna - Ps(I'm still not over you)
Enjoy! :D

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Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

[verse 2]
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

[chorus]
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

): So sad now! I dont know what to do T.T
I want to cry!!!! ):

071008!

Partner! (:

Precious& Partner! (:

091008!

KuanYi, Jasmine, PeiMei! (:

Our creation.

I look so retarded! Kuanyi with her creation!

Lol, they're cute right?

How's this? Cooool? (:

111008!

Sumo Loves! (:

My dear sumooooo! :D

Yea Man, Finish uploaded all the photos already! (: Misson Completed! Haha

(But sorry, you can't enlarge the photos. ;P)

It's 1:25am! ): There's school tomorrow, havent started on my homework.

T.T After blogging, gonna do my homework ah.

Tomorrow gonna meet BestHoney for lunchhh! :D

Wheeee, so long never meet already, hope it will be a good day out with her!

BestHoney said she Zhang Da Le, I'm also happy she had grown up! (:

Loves ♥

T&C; where have you been? T.T

Did my words hurt you today? You said I didn't, you said you're okay.

You're really okay? I can only sense that you're not okay.

Are you faking to be okay? I hope not, because I want you to be happy.

Although I'm not okay, but you can't be not okay too!

You must be happy, so you can cheer me up like you used to. & if you're

happy, I'll be happy too. Right? (: Don't sad already hao ma?

Now that I'm feeling better, you must also feel better okay? (:

Let's not care about C&C le, let them be alright? You still have me, and I

still have you. Let them do whatever they want and we live our life happy.

We must prove to them that we're happier than them! (:

Loves ♥

Stupidhead, I miss you so.

Tagged by BestHoney! :D

RULE #1 People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. Do you have secrets?
- Yep, Who don't have secrets eh? Lol.

2.Would you fall in love with a boy younger than you?
- Nope, never will I.

3. Do you enjoy going to sch?
- Hmm, I think so?

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
- Buy a new apartment, give some to parents, save& spend. Donate?

5. Will you fall in love with your best friend?
- Erm, I dont know.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
- Being loved by someone! (:

7. List out your 15 favourite songs
- I stay in love, Ps I'm still not over you, Crushed, Tattoo, How do I breathe, Moving mountains, I wanted you, Crush, One step at a time, Why, Big girls don't cry, Chuan Shuo, Yu Dao, Wait for you, One year Six Months.

8.If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
- Continue to like the person?

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
- Yep. Able to be with Stupidhead.
Not forgetting sixsome& dumbasses. & the rest

10. What makes you angry?
- I dont know?

11. How would you see yourself in 10 years time?
- Married, Have children? Lol

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
- Stupidhead, Sixsome, Dumbasses, Sumo, BestHoney, T&C.

13. What is the most important thing in life?
- A happy family, A long-lasting relationship, & A forever friendship.

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
- Married but poor. (No point being rich because you're alone& not happy)

15. What is your favourite colour?
- Red& Green.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
- Perhaps.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, and both of them do the same, who would you pick?
- I won't fall for two. I've got one and I think he's good enough :D

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
- Depends who the person is. But will never forget.

19. What do you want to tell the someone you like?
- I love you, & I really mean it. I will never leave you no matter what happen, you will always be a part of me and I swear you always will be my one and only.

20. Who must do this quiz.
- Anybody who view my blog must do this quiz! (:

Baby, I stay in love with you ♥

Hey yo! It's 12:55am lahhhhhhhhhhh!

Suppose to be sleeping now, but I'm not! I'm still not sleepy ah.

Need to wake up earlier later, and I can't sleep now!

Hope I won't feel so shag later, & I'm sure I won't. Muhaahaha! :D

Today was oh-so-great :D

I spent my afternoon with that oh-so-stupidhead! ♥

That stupidhead loves to act cute, & I don't know why. Hahaha!

(Trying so hard to contact him now, but no reply! ]: )

Hope he can get to me asap! Missya, & goodnight. Sleep tight (:

Evening, met up with J. Supposingly to go S house but was cancelled

in the end because it was getting late. (So sorry eh! )

After that, went to look for K,Y,Z and headed to KFC for their dinner.

It's their Graduation Day today! ): How sad right, sighs.

Next year, left the three of us! No more lunch time together, no more

laughters, no more! ): But Sixsome will always be Sixsome! :D

Hahaha, I love them alllllllllllllllllllllllllllll!

Nothing more to update about today.

Shall talk about other stuffs.

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Looking back to the past, I felt so stupid. Always keeping quiet and

hid my feelings inside my heart. & no one knows I'm so hurt deep down.

I've changed, I've not changed I'm still LOY PEIMEI.

Don't ask me for a change if you, yourself never.

Sometimes, we just have to know our limits and thing's wouldn't turn

out to be so bad. Remember, what's done is done, you can't change the fact

nor pretend nothing had happened. What you've done may let others

have good/bad impression on you, don't always do things with motive eh?

To me, Life's always unfair - or perhaps in other words, there's no right

or wrong. No point pushing all the blames to the other party, maybe there's

just some misunderstanding inbetween. Don't jump into conclusion so

quickly, think before you act eh. (Tho I'm like this all the while, :X)

Sometimes I wonder, why people are so strange.

It's so obvious that you hate the person, but when you come in contact

with the person, you think he/she's not that bad actually(?)

For some people, although they hated someone so badly they still pretend

to be so good with them. And have you ever thought of how he/she will

feel? Your so called 'enemy' may treat you like heaven but you're treating

them like hell(?) When you need help, then you go find them.

Laugh-Out-Loud.

Ohwell, just your luck. I'm not okay now.

Shall stop here and maybe continue tomorrow.

Feeling so bad now because of stupidhead.

He's avoiding me for don'tknow what reason, I shall wait till he reply.

Or maybe he will not reply. He's enjoying. Whatever.

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DAM IT.

I wish it's always colourful ♥

ALOHA! :D

I'm enjoying my holidayyyyyyyys! Muhahahahaha, (*How evil)

Don't feel like going back to school on Monday, Lol. (Just kidding k.)

Still have to complete my homework and hand in on Monday :/

& the re-test is like round the corner, less than a month! BOOO*

Wonder why time passes so fast :

Went out to look for jobs with J&KY today.

We had lots of funnnn! Hahaha, :D Laughed alot lah.

After finding, bus-ed down to Tampines and roamed around till

dinner time. Had pizza hut as they suggested, & I feel so guilty ):

Thanks anyway! I had funnnn okay, took pictures too.

Once I got the pictures will upload it sooooon (:

After dinner, went Century Square but most shops were closed

so we bus-ed back to Yishun. We took bus 39 and it was a long

journey ah, 11plus then reached Yishun. Felt so uncomfortable,

head's so giddy and wanted to vomit but never lah. Lol (*Gross)

Then I slept for awhile and I felt much better, but when I

sleep until very shuang, the bus turned and I nearly fell out my seat! -.-

Can't sleep back so I just stoned there, Hahaha!

Lol, was quite a pleasant day! (:

Tomorrow will be a better day too, or should I say 'later' will

be a better day? Haha, cos it's already 2:27am! :P

That stupidhead gonna give me morning calls, and I hope I can

hear my phone! Bahahahha :P

T&C : I've got so many things to tell you! Meetup soon and we shall

talk all we want k? (: You're missed! ♥

*Yawns, Nights people.

): Sighs.

A simple dream. & Just one hope.

Happy belated birthday to the two YIQIANs :D

Didn't have the time to update my blog yesterday, so yeah.

Yesterday was a great day! I didn't rot at home eh :/

Slept at 4plus and woke up at 10plus, not bad already okay. Haha.

Was woken up because of my alarm! I saved Pretty's birthday in my phone

and set alarm, woken up by the alarm and know it's 7th of oct! :D

Wanted to text Pretty but I know she's having lesson. But still texted

her at around 2plus, muhahahah! PRETTY, I RMB YOUR BIRTHDAY!

(: I LOVE MY PRETTTTYYYYYYYYYYYYY! ♥

Went out with Bread to Causeway to look for presents!

After that, she went to look for ahem so I bused back home.

Changed then met Sharmaine&Jasmine (: It's been so long since we

last went out together eh. Hhaa. Trained to Bishan, and we went for a

movie, watched 'Painted Skin'. It's so niceeeeeee!

Though there's some parts which were really gross, but it's niceeeeee!

Didn't regret watching it jiu dui, Hahah. After that, took some pictures and

trained back home. I had fun with them, :D

Today, woke up at 740am because of my NIECE!

Don't know what she do lah, come disturb me and I was so pekchek.

Mummy asked me takecare of her but I continue to sleep. Haha.

11plus then wake up, slack awhile and went out to meet Jasmine.

Wanted to go do our shirts but design was not confirmed, so went

shopping? Hahah. Trained to Paya Lebar, spent our afternoon there.

Sooo manyyyy shoooopsss! Hahaha. & I'm very happy lahhhh.

I bought a small bag, and I love it so much!!! :D HAHA.

Jasmine got herself 2 bags, and also a dress. (:

We've decided that when C.NewYear's approaching, we're going

there again. :P LET'S SEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE (:

OKay lah, I'm tired.

Tomorrow still have to go out to look for jobs eh.

(& the funniest job Ive heard, wash cars*) Hahhahahaha, :X

Goodnight!

Anyway, Goodluck to dnt people who're taking their last paper.

:D Stupidhead, jiayouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu! ♥

So lonely, So lonely.

3:31AM. Very sians, got nothing to do now.

Don't even feel like sleeping? Woke up quite late, and had a long nap

just now. Very energetic, Lol.

But too bad uh, nobody online at this hour to pei me! ):

Cried over some issue just now becos of that "someone". How silly.

Treat me as though I'm some kind of punching bag? Like wth(?)

Kena kp then start to scold me and vulgarities all out?

Even if I'm used to the way it is, I hate that okay?

You think it's perfectly alright? You think I wouldn't be hurt by your words?

You think you're always right by scolding me when I did nothing wrong?

HEY YOUUUU. That's not what you think man.

I've got feeeeeeeeelings too yo!

Waited so long for you to end your gaming, and all Ive got was your

scolding? & You saying that you dont want to talk to me?

(Very sad right? But to that someone it's nothing yea?)

Forever right, and I'm always wrong. Yes, 'ALWAYS'.

What a day? Just my luck(?)

Supposed to be very happy, but that someone ruin my mood.

I dont think that someone will even feel anything.

That someone will pretend nothing had happen and ignore me.

That's what that someone does everytime when such things happened.

That someone won't sms nor msn me. Not talking about calling me.

IF that someone call me that must be really miracle.

(But no matter how sad/angry I am, your sms/msn will still make me happy

again. Now, do you know how important is that?)

Sighs....................................................................................

Gonna be a lonely day again. S*

Shall stop crying and forget about those unhappy things.

No point crying eh? Bcos nobody care about you, STUPID PEIMEI. Zzz

Mariah Carey - I Stay In Love.

This song touches me so much, love it! (:
Every sentence is so meaningful& nice. ♥
Felt like crying after listening to this song, T.T {EMO}

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Oh baby
Baby, I stay in love with you

Dying inside cause I can't stand it
Make up break up can't take this madness
We don't even really know why all I know is baby I
Try and try so hard to keep our love alive
If you dont' know me at this point then I highly doubt you ever will
I really need you to give me that unconditional love I used to feel
It's a mistake if we just erase it
From our hearts and minds I know

We said let it go but I kept on hangin' on
Inside I know it's over you're really gone
It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do
Baby I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around
And I try to front like 'Oh well' each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now, no matter what I do
Baby baby, I stay in love with you

Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Na na na na na na na na na
Baby, I stay in love with you

It cuts so deep it hurts down to my soul
My friends tell me I ain't the same no more
We still need each other
When we stumble and fall how we gon' act like what we had
Ain't nothing at all now
Hey, what I wanna do is ride shotgun next to you
With the top down like we used to
Hit the block proud in the SUV
We both know our heart is breakin'
Can we learn from our mistakes
I can't last one moment alone, although I know

We said let go but I kept on hangin' on
Inside I know it's over you're really gone
It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do
Baby baby, I stay in love with you
And I keep on telling myself that you'll come back around
And I try to front like "Oh well" each time you let me down
See I can't get over you now no matter what I do
Baby baby, I stay in love with you (Repeat)

Keep bleeding, Keep keep bleeding love.

HEY HEY YOU YOU! :D

A boring day again yo! Rotted the whole day at home.

Watched HotShot& did my blogskin.

SO SO BORINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG T.T

There's nothing I can update either.

BOOO. I shall continue watching HotShot! :D

Goodnight.

&Goodluck to those who're taking their last few papers! JIAYOU!

Cause I believe..

Are you holding back like the way I do?

Do you know you're unlike any other? -You'll always be my thunder.

WHOAAAA! WHOAAAAA! :D

Time check : 1:10am! And it's the 5th of October! (:

Such a lovely date yea? Hahaha, Stupidhead- LOVEEEEEEEEEES! ♥

If it's not Precious, I don't even know it's the 5th! Hahaha.

Thankyou for your wishes, greatly appreciated yo! :D

Today was a so-so day(?)

Woke up with a damn swollen eyes, Lol. Nvm, forget about it (:

Didnt really have a good sleep last night, was just flipping around and

staring into space. Haha. But still fell asleep.

First thing I do was to on my computer! Hahahs.

& my internet connection was okay, so I wasn't very pekchek.

Had my breakfast, and watched HotShot. Haha.

I feel so slow, and it's like everytime I'm slow in watching youtube.

Sometimes load very fast, sometimes load very slow.

When it load fast, I was busying doing something. But when it load

very slowly, I've got nothing to do(?) So suay right?

But nvm, I still enjoy the show. It's very funny! Hahaha.

LZX \m/

Rotted the whole day at home, wanted to go out for some fresh air.

But seems like everybody's mugging so hard for their papers.

So, nobody to accompany T.T It's soooo boring.

But t&c smsed me for the whole dayyyyyy! I think we've sent about

200over smses. Haha - that's too exaggerating, I know :P

Evening, relatives all came over for dinner to celebrate Grandfather's

birthday. But it seemed kinda boring, don't have that kind of

atmosphere(?) I still remember we didn't celebrate his birthday last

year for the first ever time. Normally we will celebrate every year.

Don't know what happened too, Sighs.

This year, although got celebrate but no birthday cake, no birthday song!

): Everybody left so early! Guess the next time I see them again is

Chinese New Year! Lols. Shall wait, bcos that's the only time we'll

get together and spend the whole day at my house playing poker,

lots of laughters and everything! (:

But anw, Happy 99th birthday ahgong! (L) :D

Chatting with Best now, she's so sweet please! Hhahas.

She told me she looked through her messages and saw my smses,

and said she missed me! Hahaha. She still have got something that

let her remind of me! Haha. So touched pleasseeee.

After that, we renamed ourselves - BestHoney! Haha. Mai siaosiao :X

BestHoney ; workhard for eoy alright? Left a few more papers and

you can be free from exams until next year! :D Jiayou uh!

Sixsome! (I miss the times when we had lunch tgt D:)

Dumbasses! (I miss the date, 170508!)

T&C! (The one who always do silly things to make me smile!)

Sumooo NR! (A nanren who always bully nvren, Haha!)

BestHoney! (My china best pig who loves to sleep!)

Pretty! (Always gave me a big smile, & I love her sweet smile!)

ListeningEar! (Tho we seemed to be so far apart,but I do missyou!)

Bomb2Tree! (The one who always go MIA, making me so angry!)

I'm happy to have you people around! I love all of you! :D

(Though I love my stupidhead moreeeeeee! Hhaha.)

With you people around, I feel so blessed! (: Thankyou. *Hugs.

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Gotta end my post here, I want to finish watching Hotshot

which I watched halfway before I go to bed!

There's no tuition tomorrow anyway, can pig till nooon :D

Nights people!

Blow all your troubles away.

T&C; thanks for being there when I'm feeling so hrtbroken just now.

Thanks for accompanying me for 2 long hours, I'm blessed to have you ard.

I've said that I won't lie or break promises, and I will keep up with that.

I'll keep my promises, I won't lie to you anymore. No-secrets eh.

Thanks for your console, your words, your hugs, your love.

You told me this "Even if there's no one out there to love you, I'll love

you still." Hope you mean it, & I'll remember deep down my heart.

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My eyes' are soring, it hurts so bad. Sighs.

I'm tired, very very very tired. But I can't get to sleep.

If things are really meant to be this way, I'd rather take it as a dream.

Wake up from this dream, and forget everything the next day.

But it seemed to be the worst nightmare that I ever had.

It's rather scary, because I've never had this feeling before.

Kept thinking about it, and everything seems so real.

How do I forget this worst nightmare? How can I stop having nightmares?

Why does it hurts so bad? Why must I have this kind of feeling?

Why everything's so unfair? Why am I suffering?

Why everybody can enjoy? Why must I cry every night?

Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why Why?

I want to cry out loud, I want to shout out loud.

I want to do anything, to forget everything.

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Maybe it's time, to get back to how I used to be.

I will give it a try. Starting from today onwards. BYEEEEEE.

400am 041008.

Jonas Brothers - When You Look Me In The Eyes

If the heart is always searching,
Can you ever find a home?
I've been looking for that someone,
I'll never make it on my own.
Dreams can't take the place of loving you,
There's gotta be a million reasons why it's true.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

How long will I be waiting,
To be with you again
Gonna tell you that I love you,
In the best way that I can.
I can't take a day without you here,
You're the light that makes my darkness disappear.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.

More and more,
I start to realize,
I can reach my tomorrow,
I can hold my head high,
And it's all because you're by my side.

When you look me in the eyes,
And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When I hold you in my arms
I know that it's forever
I just gotta let you know
I never wanna let you go

When you look me in the eyes.

And tell me that you love me.
Everything's alright,
When you're right here by my side.
When you look me in the eyes,
I catch a glimpse of heaven.
I find my paradise,
When you look me in the eyes.
Oh

N's has finally come to an end.

Roar! I'm back! (:
& I so happy, N's finally over and I get enjoy for a few days
before going back to school for intensive and study camp.

Well, just a little worried for result ya?
Come back or not, depends on my result. I wish I could,
but if I really cant. That's too bad ya?
At least, everything's over!

Rotted the whole day, fixing my internet connection.
It's so dumb lah, keep disconnecting. Dam pekchek.
But now it's alright, & I'm gonna watch my youtubeeeeeeeee! (:

Sighs, seems like after exams there's nothing I can do.
Stupidhead's back to gaming, some of them still having exams.
Nobody to accompany meeeee! ): Boring~

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Rightright, shall stop blogging. Will do a proper post tomorrow.
And tomorrow's gonna be a great day!
Grandfather's birthday celebrating, everybody's coming over for
dinner! (: Cousins unite! ♥

T&C : Hey you, you're so loved! & I will surely miss you!
Looking forward to our dates yea! Hahha.
Rest assure, I won't ever lie or break promises to you. You cheeky,
please takecare of yourself and stop crying. Lol. ♥

I hate my internet connections!
Sucks! Urghhhh.