A fool will always be a fool.
Just like me, a stupid fool being fooled for so long.

( It's not easy )

The Bond, So Strong.

Nothing much about today, went out with stupidhead to do homework together. I didn't complete any homework, spend most of my time teaching that stupidhead chinese and even do the passage for him. Lol. & I got hot fudge sundae for reward, muhahaha xD After that, he walked me to bustop and on the way to bustop he made me laughed like mad. Idiot him, (: lots of love to him! ♥

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Sighs.

I'm not a toy for you to play with, when you're bored then come play with me and ask me to entertain you. When you have other better toys to play with, you just dumped me aside like nobody's business. You think what, I'm free to play with? Freaking mad at how you treat people, I'll see one day when people do the same thing to you, how will you feel. I guess you never had the feeling before. Hate that side of yours, it's so sickening.

( Again& Again. )

Sweetness of Love.

I've yet to finish my holiday assignments, the maths paper is just killing my brain cells. Dam it. I've yet to finish the social studies' powerpoint because I've got no microsoft at home. All thanks to my brother who reformat the whole computer and everything's gone. I can't do anymore powerpoint for that stupidhead. God dam it. I've yet to have the heart to start chionging my assignments because after I came back from msia, I had so many problems. Sighs.

Luckily there's no problem with internet when I'm back (: My brother paid the bill I can use the internet again. Muhahahh xD I want listen to new songs! Introduce new songs to me, people! I feel so outdated already :/

I think I'm going to have sore-throat soon, -.- Sians...

PISSED OFF.
It's not a good trip, regretted not staying another day with cousins and all. Forget it, I chose to go home today so I should stop whining about it. ): But it's really so saddening lor. Sighs.

( Christmas Eve )

Heh xD Currently at that stupidhead's house! (: My internet cannot use, so yea. Since I have the chance to blog, why not? Lol (:

Yesterday did homework together with that stupidhead, and we've completed Chemistry homework, after that, I asked him to pei me go library borrow books. I borrowed 2 books which I think is quite interesting lor, :/ You know, my english result not good so I'm trying to work on my english by doing some reading (: Hopefully it works, lol. I feel so lame here, but whatever!

Today, woke up at 10plus and prepared, bus down to tampines. Took the things and bused back home, went home, changed and ate my lunch. Went to meet stupidhead to do homework, (: Stupidhead play cheat!!!!!!!! Not fair!!! LOL.

Alright, Im going off to KL tomorrow morning! ): It's christmas and I can't get to celebrate with my friends, sighs, it's okay lah. Shall wish everybody Merry Xmas in advance :D Will be back on saturday night, hopefully my brother have paid for the internet so I can use it again, LOL!

): Off to do my homework, I havent completed anything yet, IM GOING TO DIE LAH! *shits shits shits! :P

( Don't wish to give up )

Hatred consumes everything you are.

( Is it a scary thing? )

Just downloaded one song of Jay Chou's, and the title is 花海. The song is from the album 魔杰座 but I just got to hear it few days back from the radio. I know I'm slow, but whatever okay! :/ Went through the lyrics and it kinda touches me, love the chorus to bits! Shall upload the song in my blog soon, (: Jay Chou's songs rocks like hell okay! :D His songs have alot of meaningful lyrics and nice melody too, but fret not, I'm not a big fan of Jay Chou. Just merely in love with his songs, bahahah xD This reminds me of singing session with Sixsome on the 25th last month - 我们的纪念日which we will never forget. (: We'll have chance to meet up again and I'm looking forward to that day.

Enough of the Jay Chou thing, lets talk about today. Went to school in the morning for next year's sec5 briefing. As usual, teachers asked us to do reflections and target settings for next year. To think of it, sec5 is really an important year for us. We've got to work extremely hard in order not to struggle so much when the big O's coming. :/

I was supposde to finish blogging tomorrow, but I stopped halfway. Will continue from here.

So.. after briefing, went home changed and out to J's house. Then went movie with Mo at Bishan, caught Twilight with her and I think it's not a bad movie eh. After the movie, it makes me wanna read the storybook even more (: So I'm gonna save up and get myself the storybook. If not, any kind souls can buy for me for christmas? Lmao, just kidding xD Anyway, got to thank Mo for her advance christmas' present, it's a piglet yo! So adorable. :D I remembered we went around looking for christmas' present then I saw big piggy softoy at MiniToons, asked the person and she said it cost $99.90! Got discount, which will reduce to around $70plus? So expensive lor, T.T I still want a big piggy softoy!!!! ): Nvm nvm. After movie, train back and I went sembawang to look for stupidhead. He's so cute lor, (: Blablah, then went home.

Watched little nyonya, then went online. Chatted with Stupidhead till we go sleep. (: *Secrets! Hahhah xD Nice chatting with him, ;P Gonna meet him later to do homework together, woohoo! Gonna finish my homework fast before I go off to msia. Yea man! Will blog again tonight I guess :D

( Rotting )

The clouds are rolling in

( Because I'm gone again )

I'm so pig today, veryvery pig lor! Slept at 2plus yesterday and woke up at 2pm in the afternoon! Hhaha, was kinda shocking too. :/ But it's been so long since I've last had a long sleep, you know you know - muhahah xD Wokeup, used computer - onlined and watched Forensic Heores2, and I've finished watching all the episodes already :D Now watching PiLi Mit, still stuck at episode 1 Hahaha (:

Watched till halfway, my brother snatched the comp from me lor. I got nothing to do, so I lie on my bed and rot, listened to emo songs! Lmao. And I fell asleep -.- slept all the way till 10plus then wake up, really dam pig today. But practically rotting the whole day at home, so freaking bored! I can't go out because of my hair, can only wash my hair tomorrow morning before I go school! Booohooo :/

Now I'm so energetic but there's like nothing for me to do. Not many people online to chat with! And that stupidhead slept already because he had to wakeup very early tomorrow! ): Miss him like shit, lmao~ Sighs, think I will continue to surf the net till I'm veryvery tired then go sleep. Lol. Goodnight.

( I wish I wasn't a fool )

A feeling of weakness.

( I'm trying hard. )

It's been a long day out, came home at around 12am! Was so sleepy and giddy, but after taking a cool shower, I felt much better (: Today, supposed to wakeup at 930am but I slept back and wokeup at 11plus by my brother's call. Went to prepare and out to ChongPang to meet my family. Then my brother took my ezlink to sign up for singtel student plan, but in the end he chose another plan! -.-

After which, took a bus down to Sembawang to look for that pig, and waited for him to watch finish his anime and we went shopping :D Went fareast, blablah, and that pig bought 2 shirts. (: Walked around but there's like nothing much, so we went to Bugis for lunch and shopped at Bugis Street. He also bought a few clothes there, I got helped him choose too, and he likes it :DD So cute lah he. I bought my dress there too, like finally! I've found the dress I like and it's pretty too! (: I wanted to buy so many things, but I guess when I go msia I'll get to see more pretty things. So yea, better to save up the money and have a good time shopping there, Lol.

Blablahhh, shopped till around 6plus then bused back to Sembawang to get the present for cousin and went to cousin's house for celebration. Left their house at around 10plus, and my uncle drove us to ClubStreet to try wine(?) Hahah, I had a sip of the wine and I felt so uncomfortable after that. Went home at around 11plus, reached home at around 12am. So yea, a tiring day out but I had fun with that pig (: He's the cutest pig lor, I'm starting to miss him already! Muhahaha xD Alright lah, shall stop here. Got to continue with my ForensicHeroes but guess I can only watch 1 episode today, cos by then I'm sure I'll be veryvery sleepy. Hahha. So goodnight people! (:

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I know I shouldn't think too much, but I just feel so uncomfortable. You should know what I'm worrying about, you should know how sad am I, you should know I'm serious about everything. Don't you? I kept telling myself you will understand me one day, but slowly, I realise that it was all my wishful thinking. If I know everything would become like this, I would rather not started it at all. But now it's already in this way, I can't possibly let go. I just hope I won't be fooled over and over again. You know it hurts, I don't want to be a broken-hearted girl. I don't want to suffer like the past, I don't want. I really don't, can you please try to understand me for once? ): I'm feeling so stuffy, like I've been kept in a small empty room with lots of stuffs, can't even have a place to breath. ): Sighs.. it's all about.. all about.. ):

( Don't laugh at my hair! )

Went to do my hair, and it's omg lah! :/ See me on monday you will know, just don't laugh at me okay! :X If not I don't know where to hide my face, lol. After my hair is done, went home changed then met Best at train (: I was just in time to catch the train she was in, (: Lol. Went hospital again, saw Psm&Lydia - went together blablablah. Was so sleepy so I fell asleep on the sofa, lmao! Around 8pm all went home together. Reached Yishun, walked around the pasar malam with Best, we were like so clumsy today! Kept tripping& tripping, so embarassing lor :/ After that, went home to watched Little Nyonya. Only managed to catch the last 10mins or so, ewww! ): I skipped alot of episodes already lor, sighs.

Nothing much about today, but tomorrow's gonna be a good day! Going out with that stupidhead yo, :D Hope he won't put aeroplane can luh, hahaha! (: Okay, I got to go watch my Forensice Heroes 2! :D Goodnight, sweet dreams!

( Disappointed )

Look at the bright side of life.

( Smiles )

Got back our results, my nightmare really come true. :/ Or is it just coincidence? Lmao, I don't know and I don't wish to know. Everything's over and I've just got to move on. My result ain't that bad compared to those, so yea count myself lucky that I didn't get kick out by the school. Lmao. But I think I deserve a slap, :/ Okay, whatever. Shan't let this affect me too much, I promise I will work extremely hard next year. People, please help me! (:

But I'm still so pissed off with my freaking art. Sighs, seeing the rest got a better grade than me of course I will feel kinda disappointed. I've put in so much effort for art and I could only get this, although it's consider quite good but you know.. it's effort!! ): Talking about my art, I still can't forget the incident of "somebody" who destoryed my artwork. Maybe I just got cursed by her, lol. Just kidding. (: However, still want to thank MrTan. GL for his patience and hardwork, We, the art students of 4N1 has done you proud. (: We will continue to do well for art, *evil laughs. :/

From tomorrow onwards, got to chiong holiday assignments! Hahah, that's what everybody's gonna do I guess. Lol. If any assignments not completed, "BYEBYE"! Hahahh. It's time to CHIONGGGGGGG! :D

Alright, got to go watch ForensicHeroes2! I left with 7 episodes, can't wait to finish watching lah. Hahha. Goodnight everybody! Tomorrow will be a good day yea!!!!! Smilesssssss.

Freaking nervous about later's release of result! ):

Nervous lah, :/

All the best.

( Confusion )

People are not Perfect.

(Except when they smile)

Last night I got so freaked out by a cockroach! Good thing was the cockroach don't fly around, if not I don't know if I will scream out loud and disturb my family who were sleeping soundly. Lol. I had to stare so hard at the cockroach for its whereabout. I would like to kill the cockroach very much but I don't dare~ and it's also very mean to do that, Lol :/ So I let the cockroach crawl around then after awhile, I saw the cockroach overturned! *Pretending to be dead I guess, Hahah. At least I felt ease after that, (:

Today, wokeup at 12plus by mo's call. She thought I went missing but actually I was sleeping like a pig, Hahah. Was supposed to meet Jasmine at 1245pm and I wokeup late, texted her but she didn't reply -.- Then mo told me she went missing too, like 'huh' - where did she go!? Blablah, after some time, she texted me and said she just woke up -.- She missed her tuition which is at 9am blablablah. She got a scolding from Sharmaine, Lol. Everybody thought she really went missing lor, so worried bout her then said she just wokeup! Tsktsk. Ended up, we delayed the meeting time, blablah. Went to do homework together, and guess what? No progress at all, didn't even write a word! :/ Then went home at around 8plus and I bought chocolates on my way back home! :D Chocolate's nice& healthy okay! Hhaha.

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A message for a precious friend ;

I know more or less you will be very scared about tomorrow, but don't worry we will be there for you. Hope everything will go smoothly tomorrow, Fight The Way okay! (: Sorry for always pretending to be not-so-concern about you. In fact, I'm worried for you lah! I know you're very scared inside but you always appear to be fine outside. I admire this point of yours, (: Continue to be as strong as this because I know everything will be over after tomorrow. Just need to take extra care of youself, & hmmm, maybe I'll learn to brew tonics for you from my mum (: You will be fine! :D God bless.

What a great day out (:

Went out with Syuhada to Tampines, (: Both were hungry so we settled our lunch at Mac. Then walked around TampinesMall, also helped that stupidhead to search for that shop. Went to every directory but couldn't find that shop, too bad lah. Hahah. Went inside Toy'R'Us and found many interesting things, lol! Caught an eye on the barney waterbottle which I think I'm gonna get it for my niece. She loves Barney! As well as Hi-5, hahah!

After that, headed off to Gaint cos she want to get her stuffs there. The sushi were so tempting lah! (: & I bought it okay, hahahh! It's nice too, :D After gaint, went Ikea and she got her Icecream! Hahah, I think she went there just for the icecream lor, :D Again, saw many interesting stuffs so cool lah! Before we go off, I bought the HotDog Bread which is nice too! Lol, & I'm like a glutton today! Kept eating& eating despite my upset stomach. Haha, whatever! Bused back to Yishun and I reached home before 6pm, which is like so miracle! (: And I saw AiAi on my way back home, she was happily talking to another friend and didn't see me lor ): Wasted lah. Went home, blablablah. Brought my niece down to the MaMa Shop to buy things. Hahah.
Good day! (:

Nothing much to blog, gonna continue watching ForensicHeroes2. Before I go, I'm gonna show you Jasmine's masterpiece on me. Hahah!

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TADA! The pretty nails were painted by her! (:

But I removed away liao, :/

( Santa can you hear me? )

Pyjamas Night. ♥

Had been raining for the whole day, weather was so cooling! (: Rotted the whole day at home, texted S to jio her out but she's not free! So yea, stayed home to watch Forensic Heroes2, nicenice! :D But something happened to Ting-Ting! ): Waliew, Sam& Ting-Ting were supposed to get married de lor, in the end cannot. Wasted sia~ They're such a compatible couple, super sweet! Hahah. If only.. ):

So, yesterday went out with Mummy& Sis to Amk. Went to amk central and I bought the hoodie I caught an eye on when I went there with Jasmine. *Grins. Went amk hub then, blablabah. Then 3pc Chicken& melissa came to look for me to take money! Lol. After that, trained to causeway. Blablah. I want to buy my swimming costume! Boooohooo~

Went back to Yishun for dinner then to JohnLittle. Something happened lor, super shocking. A woman came shouting in John Little, she kept shouting this "You people good outside, but inside heart very wicked. Bad-hearted! Call yourself a christian? Better don't go church and pray! " Like wth, it's a shopping center and you kept shouting like nobody's business? So everybody's looking at her, and she walked towards the cashier and started shouting and scolding, then there's one indian guy scolded her for being so unreasonable. He said "Who you think you are, this is a shopping center don't shout shout shout, got any problem can go find the manager here." The woman then apologised " Okok, sorry sorry". She walked off, and she shouted the same old sentence again and again. So irritating please! She told the sales girl, "Just now I came here to buy this but the size cannot fit me! I told the girl to change for me but she dont want." "I cannot fit in C, my size is D" Wth right, want everybody know your cup size is it? Zz, attract attention only! Then there was a guy queueing up at the cashier and he video down the scene, my sister and me were just infront of the woman and he caught us in the video, waliew! I faster ask my sister to siam, Lol! After my mum paid for the stuffs, we hurried out. Lol. And she said the woman was mentally ill, which is like, so what? Can anyhow scold people bad hearted? Insult those christian? Lol, weird people lah.

Blablah, I kept laughing on my way home! Hahha, I told my mum I can memorise what that woman said lor. She repeated for dont know how many million times. Dam irritating. Hhahaha.
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It's 12:08am now! 15december! 10 more days to Christmas! :D But I guess I cant celebrate christmas with them ): Mummy told me she's gonna bring me to KL together with my relatives, she haven't confirm the date with me yet. Just hope it's not Christmas! I've been looking forward to Christmas and I dont know why. Lol. It's EI3's 1month ): I want to celebrate with them, boooooohoooooo~

First Night.

Last Day!

Ohtian, there's still alot of combine photos but I'm not going to post it up :P Maybe some other days, (: We love to camwhore so much that we took 100over photos together, or perhaps more than that. Lol, I'm so lazy to edit the photos so I just combine them to one and upload it. First combine photos above was taken by my phone, gave a orangey kind of look which is so different from the photos taken by Shar's or Zoe's phone. Is it good or bad? Okay, whatever I know this is random! I'm just bored, :D

First day, after dance went to have lunch with Jasmine-Emalia-Yijun& Zhiyan. Headed to LongJohn for lunch, they had their longjohns while I had my macdonald's breakfast which was left in the dance studio for 3hours plus! Lol, I wasn't feeling well that morning because I was kinda nervous of 'something'. But after awhile, I felt much better (: After lunch, Sister came and we met the rest of them at OCBC. Bus-ed down to Tampines then changed bus to Pasir ris! Sister helped us checked in and went home alone! (Thanks uh! :D) Went in our room and we were like so excited, lie on the comfy bed and started taking our things out to mess up the whole room. Lol. So funny lah, we're just not used to being so tidy. Hahah. That afternoon, we watched tv and did medicure for one another. Paired up with Jasmine and she painted my nails very nicely! (: Good thing was I kept my nails long enough if not it will look very ugly. Hahha. But I painted hers very badly cos I wasn't good at it, (Sorry uh! :/) Had our nails done and we went for our dinner. After dinner, get our stuffs and went back to our room, watched tv and chitchat, play poker. Lol. We all worn pyjamas together that night, so cute lah! :D Took alotalot of photos lor, laughed alot too! Was getting abit bored, so decided to take a walk outside with our pyjamas on. Everybody's looking at us and mumbled among themselves. Like wth, we wear pyjamas your problem? Lol. We bth, then tucked in our long pyjamas into our shorts, and went ot the fitness corner. Hahah. Chitchat for awhile then went back to our room. Slept at 4plus I think, freezing cold~ Hahah. Some can't sleep, but I had a goodnight sleep! I slept the longest among them, Im just too pig lah. Hahha (:

Next morning, wokeup at 8plus prepared and some went out to buy breakfast back. After that, headed to Escape. We all regretted going Escape because there's like nothing there. Seriously, I think WWW is so much better than Escape lo! But we still had lots of fun at Escape, especially the last place we went, which was the haunted house! We thought it wouldn't be so scary but it was! Sharmaine&Kuanwai were walking infront leading us, both of them very scared also. Hahah. We all screamed throughout the whole thing. But it was funny also lah, cos K's reaction was very funny! You know you know, hahah! The people behind us also laughed at us lor, so embarassing, hahaha! After escape, went to get some stuffs then went back to our room. Slacked in the room cos it was raining and we were hoping that the rain will stop so we can BBQ. Around 6plus, the rain stopped so we went out with those food and prepared. Blablah, bbq was a nice one too but we couldn't finish everything! Lol. Blablabla, watched tv then slacked till late night. Wanted to ton till next morning but 2 of them couldn't tahan. The rest of us chitchat among ourselves then went to bed. Great night sleep again, HAhAH!

Wokeup at 8plus, prepared and some went out to buy breakfast back for us again. (: Camwhored and went to check out. Bus back to Yishun and had lunch together at Jap Foodcourt. Went home and slept. (:

We really enjoyed the chalet very much, we couldn't bear to leave the place lah! Hahah, I'm sure we gonna organise another chalet or something soon! Heh heh. Sixsome is so loved! ♥ For now, I'm too tired to continue, gonna get some rest and get up early. I've got no programme tomorrow so I think I'll just stay home and rot. Maybe start doing my holiday assignments which had been on my study table collecting dust. Tsktsk. :/ Goodnight people! :D

( Great! :D )

Sixsome's chalet was a great one! :D
Kinda miss the 3d2n with them cos we had lots of fun& laughters! (:


I'm going out with my Mum& Sis again, Shoppinggggggggggg! :D
I'll upload more photos tonight and blog about sixsome's chalet!
Stay tune, Lol.

( I miss stupidhead! ♥ )

IT was so shit, everybody's whining away, Laughs. I've been complaining every since the start :D But who cares about that ___ , let ___ biased then. I just know that when everything ends, it will not be a good one. Shit you. (:

Oh yeah, CHALET CHALET CHALET! :D
Few more hours to chalet, but before that got dance practice which is like spoil our mood! Lol. And it's like everything's so last minute and got to rush here and there. Hopefully everything will turn out slightly better tomorrow. Yea (: But the worst thing is, I haven't even pack my stuffs Lol. Like what the hell, I have to wake up like 6plus in the morning to pack then go for dance practice. Hahah. After practice still have to chiong for lunch then meet them. Hhaha, but I think it's gonna be so great tomorrow IF there's no problem during practice. Sighs, but I know I will have problems because I simply hate to see his face. Did I say his? Or yea, him. (:

Well, that's all I have for today. Im gonna sleep early ,wake up early , go out of house early , reach school early , start dance early , end dance early , eat lunch early , meet them early , reach there early , settle everything early . LOL. But I know it's too impossible! :D Lol, I'm so high now, what the hell! :X I kept thinking of that 3pcs chicken with her Golden Deal set meal. (: You this 3pcs chicken must be honoured I think of you okay! Leave me a tag everyday when I'm away, if not I'll add more chicken and make you fatter! Muuahhaha xD

Nights (:

( Don't Leave Me Alone )

Yes. I hate to be alone.

Please don't.

Cries* I don't what I'm thinking now, it's so confusing. My brain's gonna burst soon! "Hate" is the only word in my mind, I HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE I HATE! I hate that moment.. I really hate that moment, I guess you will never know how I feel. You will never know what's the pain of being cheated. I wish to hate you, but I can't. I wish to love you, but I can't. Try this feeling, it isn't great at all.

You can cherish the thing very well, I can cherish it well too. But why am I always behind you? Why can't I win you for once? Whatever I do, whatever I say, you'll surely be better than me. Even for THAT, you can get it so easily while I have to try so many times. I guess you never know what's the feeling of failing to do the things you want. Try this feeling, it isn't great at all.

If only you could understand, but you never will.

I hate that moment.

Sunsets.

Back from work, quite fun though (: Met alot of weird people, saw quite a number of familiar faces, have lots of laughters! Hahah, therer's one incident where the lady walked passed us, her slippers were too slippery and she slipped in front of us, I kept laughing and laughing :P Okay, I know I'm mean, but it's really so funny! Hahahah. :D Overall, it's still not quite a bad job, because the collegues there were friendly, people around northpoint were nicer than people around causeway, seriously. And we had the chance to slack for quite a while. Lols!

And I thought I could work at PS tomorrow, but sadly, NO. And tomorrow's public holiday yo! Gonna be so free, but meeting sixsome out to discuss about the chalet. 2 of them couldn't turn up. ): But nevermind, we can still discuss! Lol. ~Oh, I really can't wait for our chalet! *Winks (;

Besides that, I've got nothing much to blog about. I'm so freaking tired, slept so late yesterday and I'm not gonna stay up late tonight because I don't want to have pimples! ): I've already got pimples on my left-side of my face and it's so fugly! Dam it lah, :X

Just received a call from junwei, telling me about the Starhub work. Ohmy, ): Can't work even though the pay is very good. I want work as a group lah! It's more fun lor, okay lah forget it. I know by chance we'll be able to work as a group again. Lmao~ For now, I can only continue my job hunting because .. lol~ Shall stop here because I've got freaking no mood to continue. Dam.

Decided to work on new blogskin. I like the background, Laugh-Out-Loud! I guess I still prefer the previous blogskin, :D

It's 4:18am already and I'm still awake! ): I've got work at 11am and I'm meeting J at 945am! Wonder if I will wake up on time. :/ Should be able to wake up on time, because I'm not sleepy at all. No idea why. Lol, but I'm sure pimples outbreak is gonna happen and my eyebags' gonna get deeper and deeper. But I just feel so weird today! Not sleepy, nothing in my head. I feel so blank, but it's a good thing too. At least I won't think so much eh? :D

Hmmm, alright. I don't want to go any further. I'll try to get some sleep. (: Nights.

The pain goes on and on.

(It's hurting so much inside)

It's the 5th, but it doesn't seems to be a happy day ahead.

I really don't know what had happened to you, you refused to tell me, you refused to

let me talk to you. You hid everything inside and not letting me know anything.

Have you ever spare a thought for me? I'm not someone who will leave you aside

and not bothers about you, I care and I really wish to know what had happened that

will cause you to be like this. I kept blaming myself for being so useless. Useless for not

be able to make you happy when you're sad. Useless for always making you angry about

me. I'm just useless in whatever I do. But I really wish you will be happy.

I've got an intuition, but I pray that it's not true, I pray that it won't happen.

You know I'll be afraid, you know I won't be able to take it. You know..

I really hope nothing will happen, because I don't want everything to be just like that.

I don't want to think too much. I dont want to have wild guesses and making me so

confused. I don't want to cry for nothing when everything's not true at all.

I don't want everything to be like the past, I don't want!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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I don't want to lose anything.

Really.

EI3! Sixsome Wansui! ♥

Yesterday, Harry's 16th birthday! Best wishes for her, finally can watch nc16 movies (:

First day of work, pretty nervous and don't really have much confidence. Only managed

to raise about $50plus which is like so little for the 3 of us. Decided to quit the job because

none of us is very interested too. So yep, trying our best to find the lastlast job (:

After work, I chiong home and changed because my outfit for work was too ugly! Hhaha.

Met BestHoney followed by Partner (: Bused down to Changi to find the rest.

Fianlly saw Rebecca after so long! Hahah. Reached, ate and went to send Kw&ky off.

Took some pics and they had to go, so we loiter around changi. Went up to the viewing

mall too see aeroplanes, Hahha! Blablabah, went back home at 10plus. (:

Today, went for dance practice. It was so shitty, but forget about it.

After dance, went lunch with that stupidhead at japanese foodcourt then jiu went

home. Slept, and was woken up by Yanni's call. Initially we're going swimming with

Jasmine and Sharmaine, but I dont want go. But in the end, I still went with Yanni.

So last minute, Hahh. When we reached there, both of us were so paiseh cos alot of

embarassed things happened. Lol. Blablah, swim till 7pm then go bath.

Headed off to Sembawang park .. I like the sea and the cool breeze! Very nice. (:

Went home at 10plus.

I don't want continue to blog, somebody spoilt my mood again.

What the hell. I think I'm going to bed now and sleep, wake up tomorrow and forget

about everything. If that person don't even show a simple concern, why must I

bother? Well, I should stop being so soft-hearted. You do what, I'll do what.

I had enough of you treating me as your substitution. Hate it so much.

One in a million.

(So far away)

I'm back.

1am, 1st December 2008! xD

It's the start of a new month again, it's December!

Which means it's the last month of holiday, hopefully I can seize everyday with

joy by doing something useful than rotting home the whole day.

4 more days to 16th, 13 more days to sixsome's chalet, 17 more days to nlevel results,

24 more days to 1st! 24 more days to christmas! I can't wait for every date! (:

I want this month to be a good one, because November isn't a good month for me.

I'm so going to enjoy this month! :D

Going for job interview later after my dance practice.

Hopefully J and me can be employed. If it's unsuccessful, I'm gonna give up on

job hunting since holiday's going to end soon. (: Oh pretty please, let me pass tomorrow!

Sixsome's chalet coming soon too, we're still trying our best to book the 3d2n one.

Hopefully god will be on our side, lol xD

Rotted the whole day at home yesterday, woke up at 1plus in the afternoon,

guess I was toooo tired. Hahah. Nobody was free to accompany out, so I stayed

home to watch TenBrothers. Chiong finished the last 7 discs, & it's a superb show! (:

AH SZ! Laugh-Out-Loud! :DD

Now that I've finish watching tenbrothers, I've got nothing to watch already.

Anybody can lend me disc? I prefered disc than watching from youtube.

It's such a hassle to watch from youtube, you know you know. Lol.

I want to watch taiwan&hongkong drama shows! Any kind souls can lend me? (:

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It feels so right, to be here with you.

4 more days, my dear ♥