So far away.

It'd be washed away by the sea.

It'd be gone one day.

Can't use computer for don't know how many weeks again uh, internet bill not paid. So no internet until my brother go pay for it. Well, I'm getting used to it. Whatsmore, I'm trying to control myself.. so yea. Nothing big deal. :D

Anyway, these few days quite happening uh. I met sixsome for 3 consecutive days and I'm so happy to see them! *Winks! Dinner and cycling with them were awesomeeeeeeeeee! But sad uh, 2 of them couldn't turn up for cycling and due to time constraint, we could only cycle around sembawang. And also because of that stunt bike that was a problem to us, we could only cycle a short distance. Swear that next time we won't want to borrow a stunt bike from any of them. Hahah. On the way back home after Kw alighted, me and Yn was talking about what should we do on the next meet up/outing. And I thought of roller-blading, and we winked to each other. Hhaha, dam funny lo. Maybe we're gonna try this out, yea man! :D Can't wait for our next month's meet up!

And on friday, went to celebrate my father's advance birthday. Had dinner at Yishun Industrial Park and after dinner went home to cut cake. Because I had this celebration to go, I missed the talent night ): I missed the fun with sixsome, the seniors and the rest of the dancers. Sighs. Nevermind nevermind nevermind. ._.

Yesterday, went to watch soccer match - 3efc vs 5n. And 3efc won, 2-1! Cooooool. :D After that, went lunch with Twin and went BK to study. So happy, cos .... HAHAHA! *Winks. Blablablah, but it wasn't a good day afterall. Tsk. Nevermind nevermind nevermind ._.

I think I'm having a communication breakdown with my Mum lo. She's driving me nuts nowadays. Hate it siol, I dont talk to her then she say I went mute or what. If I talk to her she say I'm being rude to talk back. Eh, like wth lah. I'd rather not talk to her kay, driving me nuts! -.- Luckily school's reopening, no need stay home to listen to her naggings. If not really can go bonkers manszx. Lmao.

AND GUESS WHAT! AH.LOY still left a lot of homework to do! *Winks, I'm still so proud of it can? Wahahah. :D I doubt I can finish everything by tonight, so I'm just going to do what I feel like doing. Can? Hahahah. Who cares uh.

Someone's screaming at me to do my english assignment! CIAOOOOOOOOOOOS!

So close, yet so far. It's tearing me apart.

What I would do, to get back with you?

Banggggggs.

If only I could find the answer, to help me understand.

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SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMSS! :>
AH.LOY can go back to school tomorrow, yes yES YES, TOMORROWWWWWWWW! :D I can't wait to see the rest of them, I can't wait to finish painting that damn canvas! Hahahha. Yesyesyes, I'm the slowest among all and I'm so proud of it! (like real uh ._.) And I know, it's gonna be so stressful. Sighs. Shit this, but well, at least I can go back to school! I'm happy I'm happy I'm happy! *Winks! (;

And you know what, there'll be no extension of school holiday. Sad or what? Hhaha. So what's the point of voting? Hmmmmm, they're cheating our feelings manszx! Laugh-out-loud! :D But who knows, they might have some last minute thingy! Pray hard? Hahah.

Anyway, today was a great day! :D I went lunch with art peeps and I had a great laugh because of the 'ALMOST' thingy. Hahah! After that, met up with CousinJ at chongpang then I went for a haircut, okay - just my fringe. And I got my bangs again, but I don't think it looked good. So this will be the last time, yesyesyes. :D *oh fringe, please grow a little more longer, a little more faster. I'm gonna have you trim back to normal - no more bangs!!* Hahaha.

After haircut, went northpoint and CousinJ brought me to Swensens for icecream!!!!!!!! :D Her hot fudge and my merri mint! Hahah, so funny. She said my merri mint tasted like colgate! Oh well, but it's niceeeeeeeee! :D Then, we went to meet up with CousinE and caught the movie - I Love You, Man! It was hilarious and GAYYY? As in really gay, not happy that gay. Hahah. The movie was not bad uh, so can go watch it! (: After movie, roamed around northpoint and they ended up trying clothes at Netts. My cousins are cute please! :D Blablablah, and we walked home together! Oh man, I love them! :>

Uh huh uh huh, that was my great day! :D It will be another great day tomorrow! Going to school for art till 5plus and after which, gonna meet Sixsome and some seniors for dinner. Then Sixsome will be going for night cycling and supper at chongpang! Oh my god, this is going to be so fun! :D Can't waitttttttttttttttt! *WINKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!

So I'm going to sleep early and rest well for tomorrow! :D Shall stop here for today, goodnight! (:

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I don't know if it's true, but I know it's somehow related.
Whatever it is, I'm not going to let this affect me too much.
& I don't want to think too much too, cause it's making me worst.
I know it's gonna be alright, I know it's gonna be okay.
Will let nature take its course.

Pissed Off.

This is shit, waited for so long.. And all I've got is that I can only go back to school on Wednesday. Like what the hell. Really got quarantined for 7days can? Zzz. I'm not happy, I'm not happy, I'm not happy. Wednesday.. Wednesday.. Wednesday.. Shit this!

PS : I dislike people who don't reply my messages/answer my calls. Sickening or what? >:(
PPS: I've received messages from friends asking to go channelnewsasia.com/singapore to vote for extend of school holiday. Oh well, let's just vote and hope that there'll be extension alright? (:

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Something's missing.

so close, so far

Forgiveness does not change the past, but it does enlarge the future.

Paul Boese

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SCREAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMS!
This is hell, because I've been eating alotalotalot/nonstop every since I've recovered from that darn sickness. Goshhhhh, and I meant alotalotalot! My appetite's back to normal, I guess. It's a good thing cause I won't be wasting food again. But then, it ruin me by gaining weight. YAH, I'm whining about this because I remembered before I went bangkok, I took my weight and it's freaking shocking. I gained like 2kg and I was like "OHHHHHHHMYYYGODD" I've yet to take my weight but I know it'd definitely be VERY shocking. Shit x10000000000!
PS: I'm so perfectly fine lo, still want me to self-quarantined for 7days. Arghhh, whatever L! @.@

Oh welllllllllllllll, it's like 1:02am already. I'm not very tired, so I'm gonna find something meaningful to do now. Shall stop here then, goodnight! :D

Tongue Tied.

Bright, cold silver moon.
Tonight alone in my room.
You were here just yesterday.
Slight turn of the head,
eyes end when u said, I guess I need my life to change.
Seems like somethings just not the same.
What could say?

I need a little more luck, than a little bit,
cause everytime I get stuck, the words won't fit.
And everytime that I try to get tongue tied, I need a little good love to get me by.
I need a little more help, than a little bit.
Like the perfect one word no one should get.
Cause everytime that I try to get tongue tied, I need a little good love to me by this time.

I stare up at the stars,
I wonder just where you are,
you feel a million miles away. (I wonder just where you are).
Was it something I said, or something I never did.
Or was I always in the way. (Was it something I did).
Can someone tell me what to say, to just make you stay.

I need a little more luck, than a little bit,
cause everytime I get stuck, the words won't fit.
And everytime that I try to get toungue tied, I need a little good love to get me by.
I need a little more help, than a little bit.
Like the perfect one word no one should get.
Cause everytime that I try to get tongue tied, I need a little good love to me by this time.

I know it feels like again,
to want to be here again.
And we could help each other off the ground, so we never fall down again. And what it takes I don't care,
were gonna make it I swear.
And we could help each other off the ground, so we never fall down again, again.

I need a little more luck, than a little bit,
cause everytime I get stuck, the words won't fit.
And everytime that I try to get toungue tied, I need a little good love to get me by.
I need a little more help, than a little bit.
Like the perfect one word no one should get.
Cause everytime that I try to get tongue tied, I need a little good love to me by this time.

I know it feels like again,
to want to be here again.
And we could help each other off the ground, so we never fall down again. And what it takes I don't care,
were gonna make it I swear.
And we could help each other off the ground, so we never fall down again, again.

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Gummiesssss.

Firstly, wanna wish my beloved twin a very HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY! She enjoyed her birthday very much because ... HAHAHA! I'm so jealous lo, :/ But nevermind, I still love her! Hhah :D

Colourful Gummiessssss! :D

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Am craving for gummies now! See the colourful gummies above, awwwww! I want to eat them NOW! Hhahaha, I'm crazy I know :D Just being random.

Well, I'm finally back from Bangkok! *Winks. You people miss me right, hahaha! :D The trip wasn't a fruitful nor enjoyable one, sad huh. I felt so left out at times and I didn't talk alot with them. So lonely, so not fun. But it's okay, at least I've been to an unfamiliar place and experience something. Like..

Seeing colourful TAXIs around! Hhahaha.




And this awesome 'Tuk Tuk' taxi! It's dam cool, it travels dam fast and it's kinda dangerous also. But then, it's really very thrilling! HAHAH!


I went to their 'Floating Market' too. I remembered sharing boat with this big sized caucasian and he was sitting at the front of the boat. He was the first to enter the boat and he couldn't balance himself and NEARLY capsize! Okay lah, I shouldn't be so bad. :/

So other than that, it was shopping and shopping. It was so not fun without any friends around, awww. ): I want to go there again and want people to tag along with me!!!! Yesssss!! :D

Oh ya, so after I was back from bangkok I went to school the next day. Guess what, mr.t asked me to stay outside art room first then he said he's going down to find principal to ask if I'm allow to come school since I'm just back from bangkok. And you know what, I WASNT ALLOW TO COME TO SCHOOL LO! VP said I must be self-quarantine for 7days! Eh.. walao, 7days know! I heard that and I was really pissed off can. I was like " then my coursework how? " Then mr.t said he will make arrangement. I will see lo! I'm already lacking behind then still stopped me from coming to school. The worst thing is I can't even bring my coursework home to do. Then how? Die lahhhh. Idiot. Now he's blaming me for going bangkok, walao. Like it's my fault, my family booked the ticket long ago and is the stupid h1n1 that appeared out of the blue right. ZZzz, I'm gonna be so dead when school reopen. :/ Shit x1000000000!

But luckily, I still managed to meet them for lunch yesterday and today :D Then went home to rot again. Watched Boys Over Flower for the past 2 days, very interesting. HAHA. I think that girl is very cute, :D She got this very natural look and ya, very cute. Lol. Watched till episode 3 only, but I'm not going to go crazy over that show. I didn't forget about my holiday assignments lying on my study table NOW! :<
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I'm getting restless, so got to stop here. But gonna show some pictures taken during art camp. (: Goodnight.

It takes time, right?

Stunned.

Coming back tomorrow night, I miss singapore! ): I miss everyone! ):

Am really lost for words, really. Sighs, what should I do? I'm trying not to think so much, but it's so difficult know. Tell me, what should I do? I know everything's not going to be so easy, but what can I do? It's so disappointing know. WHAT SHOULD I DO? ):

MIA

Shucks lah! I cannot tranfer files from my phone to my computer! This is so sickening manszx, cause I've tried for 10 over times and it's really not working. Stupid phone, stupid cable. Argh. Sickening shit. But will try to transfer again tomorrow, hopefully it works k. *Pray hard.

Sooooooooooo yea, been mia-ing for almost a week! Hahah. And I tell you, kayaking was great! Hahah. Just that I was burnt like dont know what. Coach called me 'Lobster' T.T Then during the art camp, my skin started peeling off and I looked dam shit. Mo saw me and got a shocked, haha. She called me 'baboon'.. Hahah, okay whatever. On the second day of art camp, I looked like someone who've got skin disease. Very sick lo, Ai's skin also same like mine. Then we were like crying for help and complaining about everything. Hahah. Butbut, art camp was great also, though it's very tiring to do art for the whole day.

Now, I peeled off almost all my dead skins on my face. So it's getting muchmuch better already. But now it's my hands' turn, having patches here and there and it looked like i have skin disease lo. So ugly can. Hahah. Before that, there were many bubbles around my hands. Super gross! Am just waiting for it to get better! Blame myself for not applying sun block. And I swear I won't go under the sun for that long again! Really. If I were to go for so long, I'm gonna apply whole bottle of sun block to protect myself! Regretted sia! ):

Okay, enough of that stupid sun burnt! At least I've enjoyed my kayaking course with the rest and my art camp! :D But after I came back from art camp, many things happened at home. ): Firstly, my father's father who is my ahgong - he's been having hearing difficulties already. He can't hear us talking even if we talked very loud. Sometimes when he's watching tv or listening to music, he have to on until super loud then can hear. But it's very noisy and it's disturbing the neighbours. And ya, his skin got worsen I think. ): I don't like lahhh. Secondly, my mother's mother who is my ah ma - is in the hospital because she's got heart problem. Her heart was weak and have to be admitted to the hospital for checkup. Today, she was sent to icu because her condition was critical. Thus, mummy decided to stay in singapore and not join us for bangkok trip. ): Was very sad lo, and even cried when I heard that ah ma was in icu. ): Her condition is still not stable now and I'm very worried for her. It's been very long since I last went to visit her and I wanted to go hospital to see her but my mum don't allow me to go. She said it's very troublesome and whatsmore there's this stupid swine flu going around and ask me to stay away from hospital. Sighs, hope she will get well soon. Thirdly, yesterday they were quarreling infront of me can. Whats more I was feeling so sick already and they kept quarreling like what. Sighs.
Crap sia, I don't like lo. Suddenly so many things happened.

Now, my art also like shit. Final layout was like a big question mark can. It's so simple and plain, while others got so many things on their final layout. What to do, can only blame on myself for not doing enough developments and all. Ended up having nothing to show teacher and got myself a very lousy layout. But still must thank him for coming up with a layout like this with the kind of work I gave. Feeling very guilty too. Sighs. Due to no colour scheme, I have to think of the colours to paint for certain parts. It's really frustrating can, and I've got 3 faces to paint! I'm really going crazy if I cannot do well for this. ): Whats more I'm going to missed 3 days because I'll be going overseas. I'm really going crazyyyyyyyyyyyyy lo. Sickening sickening sickening! >:(

What should I do sia? Can I bang the wall? ): Help meeeeeeeeeeeeee pleaseeeeeee! T.T


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Please don't doubt me

Sick again.

It's Fridayyyyyy know, and I haven't been updating my blog. Well, guess I'm too busy and tired to blog. It's been a hectic and tiresome week. Once I got back home, it was really tiring that I can fall asleep while sitting ._.

And it's Fridayyyyy know, last day of E2 camp and I felt that it was somehow fast. Had our level activity after lunch too. Bowling at yishun safra. Okay ah, it's been very long since I last played bowling so yea .. its soooooo embarassing kay. Lol.

PS ; I'm sneezing non-stop now. Sucks lor. I cant breathe properly, I cant smell anything and worst of all I cant taste anything! Arghhh. Stupid flu. And seems like everybody's getting sick, takecare people (:

Tomorrow's Saturdayyyyy know, going to have kayaking for 2 days under Mr.Sun. Hopefully I won't get burnt, but tanned! Lol. And hopefully it will be a great day. Cheeeeeros! :DD

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I thought about alot of things, maybe you really have your own reasons of what you're doing. And maybe when the time is right, you will say out everything. Let's just wait for the time to come, but I hope it will be fast because I don't want to see such things happening again. Heart pain, get it? Sighs. I wish I could trust you more.

Mother Tongue Over!

Faking a smile is no way to live.

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Everytime I pour out my emotions, I feel emptier inside.


MotherTongue Exam's finally overrrrrrr! Three Cheersssss! :D
Got a text from Dino wishing me all the best for my papers and must get a distinction for mother tongue. Wooo, it was so unexpected lah. So happy know, hahah! :D Thanksya! And yessss, mother tongue's overrrrrrrrrrrrrr! No more mother tongueeeeeee! No more painful intensive periodsssss! :D Hahahah.

Uh.. I'm still very happy about that message. I don't know why. Hahah.

Ohhhhhhhh. From tomorrow onwards, will be our e2 camp! *Winks! I'm so enthu about everything, I don't know why also. Wahahaha! Oh ya! I've got english oral tomorrow, it's been so long since I last had my english oral. I hope I won't get tongue tied. Hahah :/ And there's 3 hours of english tomorrow, can die lo. Now have to chiong like siao for my art already, if not I really cannot fly in peace. Hahah. For all I know, I really got no time for my 6th board cause we're starting on our canvas and the deadline to finish canvas is 19june. Like omg! Surely can't finish manszx D: I still promised Ms.D to finish my boards before she comes back, but she's already back and I haven't done anything every since mother tongue intensive. She's gonna stared at me again and say "can i pinch you?" Cute or what? Hahah. Awwwwww, I miss Ms.D and Ms.F, get to see them during this holiday cause they'll be helping us. So cooool! Can't wait can't wait can't wait!!!!! :D

Today was a great day know, spent my afternoon with J&W. Went over to W's house and slacked, played cards and chitchats! Hahahah. The topics were very sensitive kinds know. And someone got so "excited" ahhhh. Hahahah. Went home at around 530 and then I slept like a dead log! -.-

Okay. I think I got to stop here, gonna get some sleep and be energetic tomorrow! :D Later if I sleep in class then someone will shoot me again -.- Ohhhhohhh, there's photo-taking tomorrow. Cool right? *Winks! Okayokay, I'm really going! Nights people!

PS ; Brong wants to steal my girlfriend! Or even asked me to share, so whatever! Hahah.

Awww, this pretty rose cheers me up! *Winks!
So lovely! :D